Sunday, 16 January 2011

Kyoto in Winter

Kyoto in Winter
link to a Web photo album:
http://picasaweb.google.com/d.karmapolice/KyotoInWinter?authkey=Gv1sRgCJ-v5u7dxJaaKQ&feat=directlink

Otherwise grey and gloomy, covered with snow, Kyoto in Winter is beautiful, magical, mysterious!




Photos from this album were taken on 31st of December 2010 and on 1st of January 2011.

Kyoto in Summer

With very much delay and two seasons later here is a link to an album with pictures from the 2010 Summer in Kyoto
link to the Web album:






Second Autumn in Kyoto TWO

Second Autumn in Kyoto (second album)
link to a Web photo album :
http://picasaweb.google.com/d.karmapolice/SecondAutumnInKyotoTWO?authkey=Gv1sRgCJ6b4ZyT__enKg&feat=directlink





I was too busy in November and December (the best time for autumn leaves in Kyoto) to go to as many places as I wished and take pictures...It's a great pity, but I was really busy with preparing and submitting graduate applications for PhD programs at US universities...Still, I managed to steal a few hours and take some photos (not as many as I wished and I couldn't even come close to fulfilling my large list of temples to visit during autumn foliage season)...This is the second album of my Second Autumn in Kyoto...

Monday, 29 November 2010

Second Autumn in Kyoto

There is a season missing actually, as I still haven't uploaded the Summer in Kyoto album, but first this one as it's ready...

Second Autumn in Kyoto
http://picasaweb.google.com/d.karmapolice/SecondAutumnInKyoto?authkey=Gv1sRgCN-e-PLCs7TERQ&feat=directlink





Photo Album: Takano River in Autumn

Takano river is just 2 minutes frommy apartment, and is my favourite place for a walk...With my terribly busy schedule lately I'm missing the Autumn season here, this time because despite my plan to visit many places and see them in their Autumn look, I'm afraid I cannot spare much time as I'm busy sending applications for PhD programs in USA (and UK actually, though the chances are that evenif I'm accepted there they have no sufficient funding)...
Actually I have absolutely no time to post...
Here are my photos...

Takano River in Autumn
http://picasaweb.google.com/d.karmapolice/TakanoRiverInAutumn?authkey=Gv1sRgCKrbvZHE55LwTQ&feat=directlink





Honenin Temple 法然院, Kyoto

An interesting temple I visited 3 times in the past month.
Today I had scheduled another meeting with the head monk there, but I had to re-schedule it, because I'm really very busy and there is too much on my mind...
Here is a link to a web album with photos from this small, but very charming temple.
  
Honenin Temple



 

Catching Up...

It has been a long while since I stopped posting regurarly here...
I've been planning to post a Summer in Kyoto post with link to an Web album for a while now, but I still haven't finished selecting and uploading the photos...
It is actually already another season and I'm taking photos to be used in a prospective Second Autumn in Kyoto...

Meanwhile.
As those of you who know me personally, know, in September I went back home for a month. The heat in Kyoto was trully unbearable, and also I seriously needed to take a break from my not so great emotional state here. I needed to get some perspective, to think things over, to find some comfort among family and friends. I've been away from home for almost 10 years now, but this was the time when I really I felt terribly and desperately homesick.
Going back home was a good idea. Although my plans for mountain hiking, relaxation and rest mostly failed, and actually I had to deal with annoying and unpleasant things, it was still better than spending anothr month alone, lonely and depressed as I was in Kyoto.
Being home with my mom and my 20 year-old cat was simply healing.

Unfortunately at the end of my stay my grandma got sick and had to be taken to hospital. A few days after I was back already to Kyoto I learned that she passed away.
It's very hard to be away from home in a moment like this. Alone with your sadness and grief.
I loved her dearly and she will be very much missed.
My trip back home was very good, because I had a chance to see her a few times during my stay and actually in a way to say good bye.

Meanwhile, despite my intention to try to sort things out a little bit during the month back home, and to come up with some sort of decision about what to do in my life next, I didn't manage to gain much clarity.
In the first days, when I came back to Kyoto, I had made up my mind to disregard my emotional state and try to enjoy my stay in Kyoto more, instead of feeling sad and lost, as I have been feeling for a very long while now, but...the news of my grandmother's passing away simply put me back where I was, feeling lonely, downcast, sad....

Regardless of everything.
This month is really crucial to my life. I just need to pull myself together. Somehow.
I need to make an effort to find motivation and strenght, or at least organise myself to do what has to be done.
This and next month I'm applying for doctoral programs (to be starting from next year Fall 2011). As my sholarship here is until the end of Marh 2011, I need to decide what to do and where to go next.
It is a big crossroads actually.
I'm now in my 10 year of my "Journey to the East". I gained a lot of knowledge and insight, both academic and personal, but I also became disillusioned, disintegrated, on top of the disilusionment, I got very hurt and I don't know how to cope with all this. This 10 year self-inflicted exile, travelling to lands thousands of kilometers away, alone. No doubt that this is a spiritual journey, but I'm in the point where I feel great doubt, and confusion...

Sunday, 10 October 2010

First Chinese Nobel Prize 2 - reactions

Today since morning I spent quite a few hours since reading about the impact of the news of Liu Xiaobo's Nobel Peace Prize win and some very different reactions. Especially interesting were the Chinese netizens reactions to the news as seen in the blogs, comments, etc.

Among the Chinese netizens reactions 4 stood out:

1. The popular Chinese blogger Han Han after 1AM on the 9th of October posted a blog entry titled "2010.10.08", which however had no text and instead consisted only of quotation marks, i.e. " ".
(This timing of the post roughly coincides with the actual timing of the announcement of the news which because of the time difference between Norway and China.)
Han Han has a huge following and many people who are apparently subscribed to his feed were immediately alerted that he has posted something and went to see it.
Quickly this post attracted thousands of readers and hundreds of comments even though it was past 1:32AM at night. (Currently the readers are above 200 000 and comments are more than 5000!).
At first most posts were by followers who asked "What do you mean?" and apparently had no clue what he alluded to.
But soon many comments aired the opinion that the blog entry's title is very telling as it is the date of the announcement of Liu Xiaobo's choice as this year's Nobel peace Prize recipient.
Some posters wittingly observed :"Since all the words are "sensitive" (i.e. pending censorship) the only thing that's left are punctuation marks."
I read through several pages of comments. Some were fascinating. But the most fascinating thing was to see that despite the blocked access to the news, despite the blocked search engines, despite the "harmonized" (i.e. censored) contents, despite the "sensitive words" censorship many people have already heard of this news and felt simply happy and elated.
Many people used various ways to avoid their comments from being "harmonized" and deleted and used various abbreviations, oblique allusions, phonetically similar characters instead of "sensitive words". The Chinese netizens' language innovation prompted by fear of online censorship is indeed a very amazing phenomenon!
It's very surreal.

2. Among the comments after the above mentioned minimalist blog post at Han Han's blog one struck me as very amusing. According to a few who commented after the said post, the central news emission deliberately avoided the news about the prestigious award, and instead as it turns out one of the most important foreign news was that a panda in a zoo abroad got pregnant. Netizens ridiculed this choice of news.
The funny and ironic part (and with a potential to be interpreted symbolically) is that a Chinese rare and bordering extinction animal (behind bars) has managed to conceive a future offspring.

3. Somewhere near the 50th page of comments after Han Han blog's entry the following Question/Answer type anecdote:
新浪网友2010-10-09 12:27:27


问:有没有中国人获得诺贝尔奖?

答:有,但他们都拿着外国国籍。

问:有没有中国公民获得过诺贝尔奖?

答:有,但他们都是中华民国的公民。

问:有没有新中国的公民获得过诺贝尔奖?

答:有,但他不承认自己是中国公民。

问:有没有承认自己是中国人的新中国公民获得诺贝尔奖?

答:有,但是我们不承认他是中国公民。

问:有没有自己承认自己是中国公民,国家也承认他是中国公民的新中国公民获得诺贝尔奖?

答:有,但他在监狱里。
The rough translation from Chinese is:
Question: Has a Chinese person won the Nobel Prize?
Answer: There are a few, but they have a foreign citizenship.
Q: Has a Chinese citizen won the Nobel Prize?
A: There are, but they are the Chinese Republic citizens.
Q: Are there any New China citizens who have won the Nobel Prize?
A: There is one,but he himself doesn't admit that he is a Chinese citizen.
Q:Is there a citizen of New China who admits to be a Chinese citizen who has won the Nobel Prize?
A: Yes, there is, but we don't admit that he is a Chinese citizen.
Q: Is there a Chinese citizen who admits himself to be one, and the State also admits that he is a citizen of New China who has won the Nobel Prize?
A: There is, but he is in prison.

4. One of the strongest image statements came from artist Kuang Biao (邝飚). In this cartoon, posted by Kuang to his QQ blog, a Nobel Prize medallion is locked behind prison bars. Underneath the image, Kuang has simply written “10-8-2010,” a historic date. (seen at China Media Project's site) .



In addition, two links to interesting articles from the New York Times:

China's Unwanted Nobel Prize                        http://www.nytimes.com/roomfordebate/2010/10/08/when-dissidents-win-the-nobel-peace-prize?ref=asia

China, Angered by Peace Prize, Blocks Celebration
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/10/10/world/asia/10china.html?_r=2

First Chinese Nobel Prize

Yesterday morning I saw with great relief that the Norwegian government did not cave in to Chinese pressure and was not intimidated by the threat from last week and gave this year's Nobel Peace award to a Chinese political prisoner.

The award is undoubtedly indeed really very significant and meaningful.
A historing turning-point.

China's Liu Xiaobo wins Nobel Peace Prize
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2010/10/08/AR2010100801502.html?wprss=rss_world/asia
Nobel Prize Is Seen as Rebuke to China
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/10/09/world/asia/09beijing.html?_r=1&ref=china


Jailed Chinese dissident Liu Xiaobo wins Nobel Peace Prize

http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20101008/ts_afp/nobelpeacechina_20101008202250
Chinese dissident Liu wins Nobel Peace Prize
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20101008/ap_on_re_us/nobel_peace_prize
Obama urges China to free Nobel successor
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20101008/pl_afp/nobelpeacechinausobamarights_20101008201304

Tuesday, 21 September 2010

back home for a month

Back home for a month... To rest, recharge, rethink...see things from a different angle... try to find some balance...

Especially the past few months in Kyoto, I felt suffocated, unable to make even the smallest movement out of the routine, nothing new happened, at least nothing new of importance, I felt stuck, unable to think, that's why after some musing I made the decision to go back home for a month (going back to Kyoto on the 5th of October)...

I need to rethink things very seriously, I need to drag myself out of the standstill, recharge, somehow see ahead...

explanation about the changed blog alias

I assume some explanation is needed (and somewhat belated) as to my changed alias, i.e. the name I currently use to sign my posts "Chodrol", which in case someone has noticed is different from my previous blog alias "Jataka" which I decided to change.
Actually I have posted previously about the name Chödröl in my post about my last July trip to Tibet, here.
As I explained there the name was given to me by two Tibetan Buddhist nuns in the remote Tibetan town of Sakya. For the past 9 years I have very much existed with a different than my given name, most notably during my 8 year stay in China, when only a handful of people even asked me what my real name was and for whom I will perhaps always remain remembered with my Chinese name.
As I am trying to "move on" with my life and cut the ties with China as much as possible, or at least gain some healthy distance, I think that the latest name/alias given to me by the two nuns in Sakya last year is not too bad to take a step towards distancing myself from the 8 "Chinese years"...
Of course, the name/alias is merely coincidental. I have no claim to posses any divine knowledge or wisdom. The only resemblance to the White Tara is my very pale skin and my interest in the Buddhist teaching. I guess that (mainly the skin) caused the nuns (unprompted) to come up with this name...?! Any other resemblance is merely circumstantial. I "claim" this alias merely because it was gratiously given to me. I gratefully accept it. And as i already said I hope it can turn the wheel for me and change the road-block I find myself in.
I'm very far from possessing any of the qualities of the Bodhisattva or the Buddha. Perhaps the only similarity is that I am awakened enough to know that there is much to be learned and to question and doubt the existing explanations?! And I travel looking, looking breathlessly...


photo is from the big pagoda in Gyantse, Tibet

Friday, 3 September 2010

Kyoto in Spring 2

It has again been months since my last post. A season has changed actually and it is Summer now. I've been meaning to post and give a link to a second Spring in Kyoto album with photos, but I have failed to do so until now. I am meanwhile compiling and uploading a Summer in Kyoto album which hopefully I will post not after months but sooner, although frankly I haven't done much visiting of temples and taking pictures for the past 3 or so months...I had plans to visit (and re-visit) gardens and temples but I didn't make it happen...The weather has been horrid actually, first a rainy season in July, followed by stiffling heat in August...I completely failed to see the gardens with the July blooming hydrangea, wisteria and irises. I meant to, even planned it, but for many reasons failed to make it happen...So unfortunatelly part of the seasonal beauty of Kyoto in Summer has not been "documented" in pictures... 

So until I compile the album of the current season (i.e. Summer), meanwhile here is a link to a somewhat belated Spring in Kyoto continued web album...
Again the photos are taken with my mobile phone's camera (I'm doing more or less the same pictures with my film camera of course, and one day they may also see the light in a future photo exhibition perhaps...), so the image quality is not good and the limitations of the very simple camera of the phone (no zoom or anything actually...) are not giving much more than an idea...
But that's what these photos are meant as really, ideas, feelings, angles as I see them...
Hopefully they can still carry a bit of the feeling I have of Kyoto.

So here is the link:
Spring in Kyoto 2

http://picasaweb.google.co.uk/d.karmapolice/SpringInKyoto2?authkey=Gv1sRgCOru1aT4iu3xlQE&feat=directlink#








As always comments and feedback are most welcome...

Thursday, 22 April 2010

Kyoto in Spring

It has been almost 5 months since my last post here...
I have been really discouraged to post which is the main reason for not maintaining this blog and for personal reasons I was unable to write or share in this rather anonymous way that in effect lacks any feedback...The lack of feedback in my life lately has been too much anyway to add the additional lack of feedback here, hence my long silence...

I made a web album with some spring scenery here in Kyoto, that hopefully is a good opportunity to break the silence...

(As with the previous Kyoto in Autumn web album, the photos in this one are made Linkwith my mobile phone camera, hence quality of images is poor, but hopefully my "angle" of seeing of things can still be felt even despite image quality deficiencies...)



Here is the link:
Spring in Kyoto
http://picasaweb.google.co.uk/d.karmapolice/SpringInKyoto?authkey=Gv1sRgCMbh3ezJkorBtAE#

At the end of March I moved-in into a new place, a one-room apartment, very close to Demachiyanagi station 9i.e. very conveniently close to Kyoto University where my classes are...) which I picked, apart from it being convenient, for its great location and beautiful view...
It took me the whole of January of apartment seeking and incredible nervous exhaustion to find this place and the moving itself was incredibly exhausting experience, but a full month into this new place I must say it was worth it...

Here is the link to a web album with photos of my room and the view and the nearby area...
A Room With a View
http://picasaweb.google.co.uk/d.karmapolice/ARoomWithAView?authkey=Gv1sRgCOHi6avD1vnQlAE#



Hm, hopefully someone will leave a comment...some sort of feedback...

Tuesday, 29 December 2009

Who is to blame for the failed talks in Copenhagen?

The very weak and dissapointing results shown at Copenhagen call for a change of the UN negotiating process...More links on the Copenhagen talks, from UK's "The Guardian"...

Copenhagen treaty was 'held to ransom', says Gordon Brown
UK's PM Gordon Brown calls for reform of UN climate talks after Copenhagen talks end in weak agreement(the Guardian)
http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/2009/dec/21/copenhagen-treaty-gordon-brown

The road from Copenhagen
UK Climate secretary Ed Miliband accuses China, Sudan, Bolivia and other leftwing Latin American countries of trying to hijack Copenhagen

http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/2009/dec/20/copenhagen-climate-change-accord

How do I know China wrecked the Copenhagen deal? I was in the room
As recriminations fly post-Copenhagen, one writer offers a fly-on-the-wall account of how talks failed
http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/2009/dec/22/copenhagen-climate-change-mark-lynas

Copenhagen: The key players and how they rated
http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/2009/dec/20/copenhagen-obama-brown-climate

Danwei interviews Jonathan Watts: "Copenhagen will shape our lives for years to come"
http://www.danwei.org/foreign_media_on_china/danwei_interviews_jonathan_wat.php

and other points of view about why the talks in Copenhagen failed:

If you want to know who's to blame for Copenhagen, look to the US Senate
http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/2009/dec/21/copenhagen-failure-us-senate-vested-interests

Blame Denmark, not China, for Copenhagen failure
http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/cif-green/2009/dec/28/copenhagen-denmark-china

INTERVIEW - Copenhagen blame game not helpful - U.N. climate chief
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20091224/india_nm/india449579

Disappointment at Copenhagen deal 'justified': Obama
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20091224/sc_afp/unclimatewarminguspolitics

news feeds: China VS the World

These few days there have been a few (at least 3) very interesting and thought provoking duel-like "spats" that seem to be putting China VS (at least some) Western democracies.

One is the deportation of the 20 Uighurs from Cambodia. (In apparent snub to international law and the Universal Declaration of Human Rights of which China by the way is a signatory, but definitely doesn't act like one). The UN, the USA and EU have all expressed concern about this. Here are 2 links on the topic.

Deported Uighurs told UN of fears of China return
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20091222/ap_on_re_as/as_china_uighurs_4#

Editorial (New York Times)
China, Cambodia and the Uighurs
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/12/22/opinion/22tue2.html

The second issue is the political trial of Liu Xiaobo.

Liu trial a travesty: Human Rights Watch (AFP)
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20091222/wl_asia_afp/chinarightsdissidentjusticeushrw_20091222072820
Chinese activists warned over dissident trial
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20091222/wl_asia_afp/chinarightsdissidenttrialeuus_20091222072820
The Trial of Liu Xiaobo: A Citizens' Manifesto and a Chinese Crackdown
Perry Link
http://blogs.nybooks.com/post/293446113/the-trial-of-liu-xiaobo

Chinese Dissident Gets 11-Year Prison Term
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/12/25/world/asia/25china.html

Trial in China Signals New Limits on Dissent http://www.nytimes.com/2009/12/24/world/asia/24china.html?em

video about Liu Xiaobo
http://news.yahoo.com/video/world-15749633/17275236;_ylt=Ar2u60H__VW8FKSDXUjLhxIBS5Z4

The third one is the failed talks at Copenhagen.

China blasts claim it 'hijacked' climate talks
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20091222/ap_on_re_as/as_china_britain_climate_2

Ed Miliband: China tried to hijack Copenhagen climate deal
http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/2009/dec/20/ed-miliband-china-copenhagen-summit

How China Stiffed the World in Copenhagen
http://www.foreignpolicy.com/articles/2009/12/21/how_china_stiffed_the_world_in_copenhagen

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A China related article in the New York Times I came across recently.


Uneasy Engagement: China’s Export of Labor Faces Scorn
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/12/21/world/asia/21china.html?bl

A day Before the Copenhagen Talks :pessimism and concern

The unprecedented gathering of politicians in Copenhagen shows the urgency of the question, but frankly things seem far from optimistic about the global climate change summit dubbed "Hopenhagen", as a play of words between the name of the city the meeting takes place and the hope this meeting will actually have a meaningful outcome...A hope for a Fair, Ambitious and legally binding deal to protect our climate, but, unfortunately, there is enough reason to be pessimistic about the possibility for such an outcome. The two major emitters of CO2 gases which are one of the main reasons to blame for the raising global temperatures caused by man's negative interference with the Planet are USA and China. The current "superpower" and the emerging one. One of the countries with "historical" burden of blame for the build up CO2 in the atmosphere and the current (and by all predictions to be the major future) one Number One polluter in the World, China. The problem is, the consequences of the rising carbon emissions are not a question of "per capita", or "state of economical development", the burden of pollution that is emitted is huge and it will have huge impact on the whole Planet, in fact because of the rising ocean level some small (and politically "insignificant") island countries are faced with not so far in the future fate of being completely submerged... It is really hard not to get angry at the arrogant, short-sighted and stubborn position of the Chinese government on the "issue" of responsibility. They talk loudly about historical responsibility, but the irony is that at this very moment China single handedly is building new historical responsibility, and is de facto the biggest polluter of this planet, with predictions that its polluting role will rise more, even double. And while we can say that indeed the western developed economies have contributed much to the accumulation of CO2 and there is a clear negative impact of their economic development,it was largely done out of ignorance for the consequences.The present situation of China, however is different, China is fully aware that this is bad, but refuses to act responsibly...and instead of thinking and acting responsibly and wisely, is pointing at others. An immature and insane behaviour only guided by self -interest that unfortunately influences the whole world. It is high time other countries realise that China is NOT a developing country in the same sense as they are. And they will only lose if they continue to be sided in the same category with it. Because China while indeed in a stage of development is in a far different league with any other so-called "developing country". It is arrogant, greedy and improper for China to ask for money from developed countries and at the same time be the current Number One polluter of the world who has no intention to cut it's emissions. It is immoral and irresponsible.And in this case China has no right to finger point at others, since it itself finds it impossible to face up to hard truths.The truth is that the Chinese government doesn't care at all about if Tuvalo islands or other such ("insignificant" in their view) island countries completely disappear from the face of the Earth. They say that the "interests" of the "Chinese people" are paramount and "come first". Actually the truth is that those politicians have little right to even talk about the so-called interests of the Chinese people, for the simple fact that the insanity of the way that China is "developing" is not only poisoning the rest of the world, it is poisoning its own people. And while the Chinese representatives in Copenhagen arrogantly ask for accountability for past historical responsibility they should be ashamed, and face the reality of the present and future historical responsibility of China, and while they ask the west to do some soul searching it is also they too who should actually think more deeply about the price of the Rise of China...the price that ordinary Chinese people pay, and the price everybody else will pay, because political borders are no much more than a temporary illusion, the Earth is a interconnected organism, that we don't even come close to actually understand. Just on the eve of the start of the Copenhagen summit China announced a pledge to slow down it's emissions intensity (not cut down or reduce), it is better than nothing, but a very legitimate worry (and my worry too) is how will the Chinese hold on to this pledge in reality. The reason why there exists doubt and controversy is that this pledge is not legally binding, and with a very poor history in rigged reports and tempered statistics I seriously doubt that the Chinese will be able to pull even this through...

Monday, 7 December 2009

Autumn in Kyoto - photos

I selected some photos which I took for the past month (i.e. November) in Kyoto, and also in the nearby Ohara and Nara during a few one day excursions. They are mostly of Buddhist temples and temple gardens, but there are also some of Shinto shrines, or of some places or images in Kyoto that impressed me.

Here is the link to the web album with the photos I selected.

Even though the quality of those photos is really not good (they were taken with my mobile phone), it is the only way I can share with you digital images of what I'm seeing...Meanwhile I'm of course also taking photos with my camera, but since I use film, it will take a while before I develop the films and make prints and can be able to show you some "real" pictures...Meanwhile this is, in the present circumstances, what I can show you...although with no great image quality (in fact it is really not good), I hope some of the feeling and some of my way of seeing things can be felt even through these images...

the album link again, just in case...
http://picasaweb.google.com/d.karmapolice/KyotoInAutumn?authkey=Gv1sRgCP6hhu7S1eOdZA#

P.S. I'm getting really very discouraged by the lack of feedback...it is pointless to share without any reaction...

Friday, 27 November 2009

Something beautiful...



These two photos are of (very cute moss covered) stone images of "Jizo", a child image of the Bodhisatva Jizo 地藏菩萨 who out of compassion willingly entered Hell in order to save all sentient beings there...In Japan he is especially associated with saving children, and people often make little Jizo statues such as those as a remembrance for a lost child...





(One of the photos of my blog's sidebar is a photo of 4 Jizo stone images...A picture I took more than 2 years ago when I visited Kyoto for a week...)


This is another photo taken on Wednesday at Sanzen In (in Ohara) and at the stone statue at the back is actually a statue of the "grown-up" version of Jizo Bodhisatva...





After going to Ohara first on Monday, but not being able to take as many pictures as I wanted, in fact these stone child Jizo statues were the main reason I went back again on Wednesday morning ...On Wednesday although it was again overcrowded with Japanese tourists (mainly elderly ones) I had a very relaxing feeling looking at those very cute child Jizo moss covered stones, the light was very beautiful, it was a warm and pleasant Autumn day (it deffinetely warmed me up after the very cold temple visits in Nara on the previous day, which I suspect is the reason for me catching this very bad cold)...At the time I was leaving the temple garden I was actually feeling almost happy, as if viewing the very cute stone statues had a healing effect...Perhaps they actually do have...

(The quality of these images is bad, since they are taken with my mobile phone...but since I don't have a digital camera, these are the only ones I can show you for now...)

Staying home with a bad cold

After 3 consecutive days of temple visiting (in order to visit most Japanese temples you have to take off your shoes), on Monday to a nearby to Kyoto town called Ohara, on Tuesday to the ancient capital Nara (it was just incredibly cold and I think that's the chief reason for my bad cold now), and on Wednesday morning again back to Ohara (because it was so beautiful and on Monday I ran out of film and the light was not good enough to take decent photos), I fell ill yesterday evening and today I'm down with a very nasty cold which renders me completely helpless.
I decided I'll just not go to classes today and instead try to rest at home...
In the early afternoon I hardly found any strength to go down hill (as I mentioned before the dorm is on the top of a rather steep climb from the railway station) and go and store up with some groceries from the local supermarket...I'm drinking hot herbal tea all day long and taking medicine which obviously isn't working...

When you are terribly depressed and feel desperately lonely and sad, the LAST thing you need it to be ill...

I've been feeling terribly exhausted the past month, at the beginning of the month my emotional condition was at its worst, now I'm just terribly exhausted...
Yesterday at Sanzen In temple in Ohara there was a less frequented path on which I found a very crudely cut stone sitting Buddha figure. It is really very exceptional for me to pray (I'm not sure if I ever did really), but I suddenly and very naturally put my hands and pressed the palms in front of my face, fingers touching the place between the eyebrows, I closed my eyes and silently prayed for two seconds :
"Please, please help me make this unhappiness go away!"

About Obama's soft approach on human rights in China

Last week I came across this very interesting analysis evaluating Obama's visit to China and Obama's approach to human rights issues. There are some very insightful points with which I agree...It is yet to be seen how Obama's administration changed approach to China will influence things, but I really worry that because of the financial crisis and the US huge debt to China the world is somewhat held "hostage". I feel very pessimistic about how China's growing political and economical clout shifts the importance of universal values and ideas...Anyway, these are just my thoughts...

Obama's Soft Approach on Human Rights
(New York Times - Room for Debate Blog)

As for the overall impression of Obama's trip to China, many observed that instead of making any obvious and meaningful progress on any of the issues on his agenda, "he seemed to drift genially from one staged event to the next, politely toured a few famous national landmarks, and met with his half-brother for five minutes."

Obama went to China and all he got were some photos at the Great Wall http://www.worldtribune.com/worldtribune/WTARC/2009/mz0905_11_13.asp

But of course diplomacy sometimes is not a matter of seeing results right away, so just let's wait and see...
Maybe Obama's strategy of "reassurance" works...

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About Obama's visit also see China Media Project's
Obama in China: an information war behind the scenes