After 3 consecutive days of temple visiting (in order to visit most Japanese temples you have to take off your shoes), on Monday to a nearby to Kyoto town called Ohara, on Tuesday to the ancient capital Nara (it was just incredibly cold and I think that's the chief reason for my bad cold now), and on Wednesday morning again back to Ohara (because it was so beautiful and on Monday I ran out of film and the light was not good enough to take decent photos), I fell ill yesterday evening and today I'm down with a very nasty cold which renders me completely helpless.
I decided I'll just not go to classes today and instead try to rest at home...
In the early afternoon I hardly found any strength to go down hill (as I mentioned before the dorm is on the top of a rather steep climb from the railway station) and go and store up with some groceries from the local supermarket...I'm drinking hot herbal tea all day long and taking medicine which obviously isn't working...
When you are terribly depressed and feel desperately lonely and sad, the LAST thing you need it to be ill...
I've been feeling terribly exhausted the past month, at the beginning of the month my emotional condition was at its worst, now I'm just terribly exhausted...
Yesterday at Sanzen In temple in Ohara there was a less frequented path on which I found a very crudely cut stone sitting Buddha figure. It is really very exceptional for me to pray (I'm not sure if I ever did really), but I suddenly and very naturally put my hands and pressed the palms in front of my face, fingers touching the place between the eyebrows, I closed my eyes and silently prayed for two seconds :
"Please, please help me make this unhappiness go away!"
Friday, 27 November 2009
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