Saturday, 19 September 2009

Photographic Exhibition :Where there are flies there are also Buddhas


This is the photo that heads the exhibition and which is featured on the poster too.
The title of the exhibition is :Where there are flies there are also Buddhas (see this older post about explanation of the title).
The exhibition will continue until 26th.

As a matter of fact I actually almost had given up making the exhibition - the very poor organization, the lack of time, lack of money, etc where all reasons that made me give up the idea to make the exhibition, but...As I thought about it more, I decided it is nevertheless worthwhile to make something...So here it is. The opening was yeasterday evening. The lack of time meant that only a few people came for the opening itself, but I hope some people will go and see my photos in the remaining days before the 26th. Fot this exhibition (this is my second photo exhibition, as I believe those of you who know me know) 31 images were selected and exhibited. Mostly these are images from my last trip to Central Tibet (the so-called Tibetan Autonomous Region) in July this year. Only 4 or 5 pictures are taken during other trips from other tibetan regions. I will try to upload more images from the exhibition from the upcoming days and share here...

Yesterday I gave two interviews for the media, hopefully in this way more people will find out about it...

Overall there are many things about I'm not happy about, mainly about the organization...The printing turned out quite good. After a couple of days during which I was completely desperate that nothing decent will come out as a result, I managed to find a place and make quite good prints. The colours are not bad and the overal result of the images is not too bad I think...
But again, as everything was made in a haste, there was no time to do things well in arranging for things, no time to inform the media, no time to invite more people...Hopefully in the coming days somehow people will learn about it and go and see it...
I feel sorry that some people I personally invited and some that promised to come didn't show up at the opening last night...

Anyway. Let's see what happens during the following few days...

Friday, 11 September 2009

all that you leave behind...

It has been a while since my last post. In fact there has been a month since my last post...Although I was very motivated right after returning from my Tibet trip to write a series of posts about it for many reasons I failed to do so meanwhile. Also added is me being aware of how few people actually follow and read my posts, so frankly I feel very discouraged and definitely not very much motivated to write more or more frequently...

Actually, there are more reasons for this blog silence (apart from the discouraging lack of readers and support)...

Meanwhile throughout the whole of August I was extremely busy with shipping, posting, packing...IT IS NOT EASY to pack and leave after 8 years. The amount of books and stuff (especially books) that I realised that I have managed to accumulate made me feel nauseous of buying books for a while. I send most of the things (books) back home to Europe. I send some daily necessities, cosmetics and clothes to Japan. (As I believe most of you know, my next destination from October is Kyoto.)

The cargo will arrive here (back home) after I have left for Japan. I am currently trying to make my mother physiologically prepared for the amount of boxes which will arrive...Unpacking will be who knows when and where...

I send the things to Japan to an address which I know to be my dormitory. Perhaps I am the only person who has ever asked the postal service to send the packages slower (!) since I am afraid that even though I have used the slowest possible (land/sea) mail perhaps my packages will arrive before me.

As of a few days ago, I know that I will be travelling on the 1st of October and will arrive in Osaka on the 2nd of Oct. Luckily there is a pick-up service that will take me on the same day to Kyoto directly to my dorm.

My (Japanese language) classes are scheduled to begin on the 9th of October.

Meanwhile, it has been 11 days since I am back home in Europe. Ever since my arrival I was very busy since the very first day and the first week since my arrival I was busy mainly with organising and doing arrangements for my pending stay in Japan. Issued a new passport(my old one expires soon), went to the Japanese embassy a couple of times for the visa (I have a 2 year visa now) and other formalities. Meanwhile been corresponding with my academic advisor and the international student's office in Kyoto University about formalities and arrangements, etc. So I haven't had chance to rest much. And after the very exhausting last few weeks I do need to rest and relax...I had the intention and wish to make a photo exhibition with my photos from Tibet. I had the films developed in Beijing, but made the paper prints here. It took me 3 days and I printed out most photos in size 13x18 in order to see them and decide. I selected some 50 prints that are good and can make a good exhibition, but as of yesterday I don't believe that the exhibition can happen. Main reason is financial, but also the lack of time to properly make a good organisation and also lack of support and motivation...For now it looks that I will just end up showing the pictures to my friends.
But another main reason why making an exhibition now is not a great idea is my need to have a rest. If I do make the exhibition happen now will mean that I will have absolutely no time to take a break and go somewhere...I feel very exhausted, both physically and emotionally. I have too many things on my mind right now...

The last few weeks in China were very hard. Mainly because of physical exhaustion (the packing and sending of all of my things, working to make the money to pay for it and for two weeks going to a seminar lecture in Buddhism) my last month in China and Beijing was incredibly tense and exhausting...

Emotionally it was very hard too. I left many things undone. Things that were actually in my control to do and I failed to organise myself. But also many things that are beyond my control were also left undone. Going to Japan is maybe not such a great idea. It is too close to China and it will be hard for me to put some things behind...

And as it has been my established "custom" for the past 4 years I cried on the Beijing airport. I hope these will be my last tears of sadness and bitter helplessness on Chinese soil. Ever!

Hm. This didn't turn out as a very cheerful post...But that's how things are...
These days there are good things happening too though. Being home, seeing friends, spending time with my mum, my cat (which is now at the incredible age of (at least) 18 years old! but looks quite healthy and well)...Actually being home feels cozy and relaxing...

Friday, 7 August 2009

China contributes much to increasing of green gas gases, but will do little to the reducing of climate change

China refuses to budge on greenhouse gases (AFP)
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20090805/sc_afp/chinaclimatewarmingun_20090805160124

BEIJING (AFP) – China refused to budge Wednesday on its demands that rich nations commit to large greenhouse gas cuts at upcoming climate change talks, while also declining to put a ceiling on its own emissions.

China and other developing nations will call on rich countries to cut greenhouse gas emissions by 40 percent by 2020 from 1990 levels at negotiations in Copenhagen in December, said Yu Qingtai, China's top climate negotiator.

"We have all along believed that due to the historical responsibility of the developed nations, they must continue to take the lead with large reductions beyond 2012," Yu told reporters.

We "have demanded that developed nations reduce emissions by 40 percent... this is fair and reasonable... China's position has not changed."

The December negotiations are aimed at hammering out a new climate change pact to replace the Kyoto protocol that expires in 2012.

As a developing nation with low per-capita emissions, China is not required to set emissions cuts under the UN Framework on Climate Change.

The European Union has said it will slash emissions by 20 percent by 2020 compared with the 1990 level.

The US Congress is considering legislation that would reduce US greenhouse gas emissions by 17 percent from 2005 levels by 2020.

China, the world's largest emitter of greenhouse gases along with the United States, has said neither of the cuts are enough.
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Friday, 31 July 2009

Where there are flies, there are also Buddhas...

人有れば蝿あり仏ありにけり
hito areba hae ari hotoke ari ni keri

where there's people
there's flies
and Buddhas

Kobayashi Issa *
1823

This is a Zen (Chan) Buddhist haiku by 19 century haiku-poet Kobayashi Issa. I have always enjoyed his simple, rural haiku, filled with irony, humor and undistilled Zen...
This haiku came up to my mind at one point of my recent Tibet journey. At one of the last points of the itinerary of the trip, in the very remote Sakya, there were so many flies that one had to wave ones hands all the time to avoid their landing on food, etc. Sakya is most notable (and named after) the famous monastery of one of the 4 most important Tibetan Buddhist sects, Sakya sect.Our objective of visiting Sakya was of course the famous monastery there...
Issa's haiku suddenly came up in my mind.

At this very remote, and very very poor place, I remembered Issa's haiku, which in an amazing and 'acurate" way described the whole trip...
People, flies and Buddhas.
I had a sort of revelation.
In Mahayana Buddhism EVERYONE has the potential to be a Buddha. Everyone. People, dogs, flies...Me, you.

I choose this paraphrased sentence of Issa's haiku, i.e. "Where there are flies, there are also Buddhas..." as the title of my Tibet's trip posts...I actually very much hope I can be able to organise a photographic exhibition in my hometown in the upcoming September with this title...Keep your fingers crossed!

Meanwhile. These past few days I have been caught in the net of having to do (and think) about other things which prevented me from initiating the posts about the Tibet trip...Another reason is my incapability to upload any pictures, which greatly upsets my plans for artfully/beautifully presented posts...The censorship's grip has become even tighter, lately it's hard to figure a way to go past it...

Meanwhile, at least titlewise I managed to outline some basic starting points of my recount of the trip...Actually I was very excited about the conceptual idea of putting my experiences, obsrvations and thoughts together...Kind of a project...
Anyway I will try to organise the upcoming Tibet trip related posts more or less in the following order:

The Itinerary
Altitude, Nature and Views
The Colonization of Tibet
Pilgrim's Path
Monasteries, Temples and Stupas
Buddha, Dharma and Sangha
Monks
Nuns
Khadags, prayer flags, butter tea and tsampa
No-harming of Sentient Life
Discussions, Debates and Raised Questions
Daily Needs
Lhasa, Towns and Villages
Museums
Photography Moments and Shots
Fellow Travelers
The Perpetually Weeping Bodhisattva



Chödröl
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* Kobayashi Issa is without doubt one of my most favourite poets. His rural Zen Buddhist "sudden enlightenment" poems are one of the reasons why I find myself here in Asia, studying It's languages and cultures...From October based in Kyoto,I will do my best to learn Japanese if not for other reason then at least to be able to fully appreciate his (and other haiku poets') poems in original...
Here is a link to Kobayashi Issa haiku if you want to check out more of his poems. On this site there are more than 9,000!
http://haikuguy.com/issa/index.html

Thursday, 30 July 2009

Why Rebiya Kadeer is not the Dalai Lama. Why Xinjiang is not Tibet.

There has been almost a month since the tumultuous and bloody events in early July in Xinjiang.
It was a very important and thought provoking event with many complex reasons and implications.
Quite deservedly there have been many commentaries and analysis.
Unlike the events from March last year when for quite sometime Tibetans rose up in different parts of Tibetan territories for quite some time. Which prompted heavy military crush of the dissent,
and troubles during the international Olympic torch relay, which in turn spurred unseen nationalistic surge among the Han Chinese, the bloody events in Urumqi did not last for that long, and did not cause quite the effect of last years events.
But both events have their shared similarities, but also there are many differences as well.
I also have been thinking about the events, I'll try to express a few of my thoughts about the question...

Firstly,a really must-read post at the very good China blog "the China Beat":

The Urumchi Unrest Revisited
http://thechinabeat.blogspot.com/2009/07/reflecting-on-urumchi-events.html
(for those of you in China, since this is a blog on blocked by Chinese authorities site, i.e. the same one as my blog's, this link can be only opened by proxy or another means of circumvention of the Great Firewall)

A good post by Evan Osnos about the re-drawal of two Chinese film directors from Melbourn film festival...
Jia Zhangke and Rebiya Kadeer
http://www.newyorker.com/online/blogs/evanosnos/2009/07/jia-zhangke-rebiya-kadeer.html

In the usual (and extremely imbecile) way Chinese local and central authorities said the ethnic and race violence in Urumqi was "an organised and plotted act by foreign hostile forces, lead by the "terrorist" Rabia Kadder".
That's a claim that the Chinese CG claims to have prove of, but has yet to provide evidence of, but we can reasonably doubt such claim's credibility.
The parallel with last year is obvious. Dalai Lama (and "his separatist forces") was said to have plotted the demonstrations, violence and riots of the Tibetans. A claim that the Chinese authorities NEVER really showed a prove of.

Monday, 27 July 2009

China Strong (black humor mock-newspaper article)

While I'm trying to organise my thoughts and impressions about my recent Tibet trip, and hopefully start a series of posts about it very soon, I'm also, (news "hungry", since for at least 2 weeks didn't read or follow news much) trying to catch up with news and events that happened meanwhile while I was on the road...
Needless to even doubt it, the biggest news for the past two weeks was the Urumqi ethnic violence which erupted just a day before I took off from Beijing...
I'm also trying to catch up on reading posts on blogs I'm following...

Following a link from Evan Osnos' LETTER FROM CHINA ( a very good China blog) on the New Yorker, came across a very funny mock-edition of newspaper called "The Onion" which recently had a China-dedicated edition...

Below is a short China related article in The Onion that I find quite funny (and short enough) to reprint...

CHINA STRONG

NEW YORK—According to all sources, the People's Republic of China is strong. The nation is united, the military unmatched, the economy vibrant, and the people ever joyful.

Similarly correct sources verified that China has always been triumphant.
In other news, the Chinese government is fair, all-knowing, and wise, propelled by the strength of two billion loyal hands, all pulling together as one under the Great Celestial Bureaucracy high above.

Experts all agreed that there can be no question of this claim, as this claim is the truth.

As of press time, the brute and inexpressive English language could not convey the full magnificence of China, nor its excellence in every arena, nor the protective warmth of the red sun that shines forever on its borders, nor the innumerable glories of its Great Leaders.

New reports also indicate that China will grow stronger yet. 鱼

link:
China Strong
http://www.theonion.com/content/news/china_strong

Thursday, 23 July 2009

Pilgrimage To The Land Of Snows

I'm just back from Tibet.
I came back late last night and the rich mix of experiences, impressions, thoughts, feelings boil in me...It's quite strange to find myself in my old room that I have lived in for 7 years, back to the city that I have considered "home" for 8 years...
It's quite a big difference. Not a difference that can be measured in the cities difference in development. It's a difference of soul.
For me Beijing has no soul. Tibet has.

I don't know quite how to "adapt" to my old self, and I'm really not sure if I wish to...
For at least couple of weeks I have almost completely forgotten about my long-time sorrow and sadness, my loss of motivation and purpose...
I'm not quite uncertain how to express most of my thoughts and observations which are many and put some of them into words.

No doubt. It was a trip which in my current confused emotional state I needed badly. A new experience to hopefully stir change. I haven't traveled for very long.
At this time that I find myself at my life's crossroads, with big changes awaiting, a trip like this came as a gift...
Perhaps deeply inside I was asking for some turn for the better in the way things are...
So it was more of a pilgrimage than any trip I have taken.
Visiting temples and "power places" in the land where native people still believe mountains and lakes to posses unimaginable great powers over humans...A land where there are god-like spirits to be made tame by offerings made by the pilgrims...Having seen the vast expanses of the majestic land is Tibet I can't help seeing the "logic" in this expressed reverence for Nature...One is simply dwarfed among the vast expance of endless land, high mountains and mountains...
At least before the Han Chinese came with tanks, buldozers and railways to "tame" the land...

Hm, I actually don't even know from where to start relating my trip's experiences and observations...A couple of recent comments encouraged me to try to share some of it here. I will try to do my best and somehow organize things in my head and heart and make it somehow post-able.
There are too many things that have stirred my deep thoughts and deeply impressed me. Personal, spiritual, political, ethnical, social...
I took many pictures, but only very few are digital since I'm very 'oldfashioned' and use still obstinately film and a completely manualy operated camera...
I have a feeling for some very good shots, but that remains to be seen when I manage to develop them...For now, I have 25 films in my fridge...

Apart from taking many pictures and enjoying nature, undoubdedly I saw many things that stirred my deep reflexion on many issues...
The intimidating military armed patrols all over Lhasa and Tibet, the control, the obvious colonization process that is underway, the extreme poverty, the problems of modernization, the destruction and rebuilding, the overwhelming landscape that has moulded this land's people culture...This trip gave raise to many questions and many musings...
I will try my best to put at least some of them in some kind of order and share them here as a series of posts...

It was a good trip. Very rich in experiences and observations. As nearer to a "spiritual trip" as I have been.
I'm asking myself - in what capacity was I - a traveler, a researcher, a photographer, a pilgrim, or merely just a tourist?!
Perhaps a bit of all.

Somehow on some level deeply I probably hope to have "gained" enough merit with all the homage that I paid to Buddha images and altars, the offered kataks (katak, or "hada" in Chinese pronuncion,is a white Tibetan silken/flaxen scarves used as offering objects at temples, etc.), with all the khorras (khorra is circumambulation, or walking around an object of reverence)around statues and temples...enough to turn the wheel of my life in a new positive direction and stop the sorrow of loss and the feeling of lack of motivation...
I don't know if this very close to religious experience will have this result. But if nothing else I got a new name. A Tibetan name. For more than 8 years I had a Chinese name and many people that I have met for the last years knew me as my Chinese self.
I got asked a few times if I'm a Buddhist. I answered affirmatively. I'm not religious, but yes, my worldview is undoubtedly Buddhist. I see no contradiction. In many ways I'm a practicing Buddhist, without being a religious follower, without believing in prayers and rituals, without feeling affiliation to a community of others, there are many things in my way of life, in my understanding and ideas that make me such. So if I have to label myself I would not mind terribly labelling myself as a Buddhist.
It's not a matter of religious faith, it's a matter of accepting as true some (or most) of the explanations of human existence that Buddhist idea offers.
At the same time although I feel very remote from the Tibetan Buddhism, and hardly know anything deeply about it, each time during my travels the experiences in Tibetan Buddhist temples have brought me the closest to a religious experience...

During this trip I got a new name. I see this now as standing out with a special significance.
My new name is Chödröl, which translated means Dharma Tara, Tara of the Teaching. Tara (or especially as i am told the White Tara which my new name implies, is a female Buddha painted in white, a peaceful image in many Tibetan murals and statues)...I was given this name by the nuns in the Sakya nunnery in Southern Tibet. They were very kind and hospitable and I feel very honored to be given this name by them...

So with a new name I hope I can have a chance for a new, fresh start.
I wish I had enough wisdom to see trough all the sorrow and the things that make me sad even now...Just enough to be able to take a breath and look around myself clearly with hope...
Having experienced the physical shortness of air and oxygen in the high altitudes of Tibet I realize that I have almost stopped 'breathing' during the past couple of years...
I need to start anew somehow.
With a new name, a name full of positive power, I hope I will somehow manage to turn the Wheel...

Sunday, 12 July 2009

Dalai Lama calls for democracy and reform for the future Tibetan leadership

(This is a scheduled post...I'm actually not in Beijing right now, but I believe this is news worth mentioning...And since I'm not going to be posting for a while I have made this a scheduled post...And since my trip is to the "Land of Snows" this news is relevant in a way too...)

Dalai Lama says favours democratic leadership

(Reuters)The Dalai Lama has encouraged Tibetans in exile to embrace the democratic system of electing a leader, saying it was essential to keep step with the larger world and to ensure the continuity of their government.

In a video clip shown to hundreds of monks, nuns and lay people in the northern Indian hill town of Dharamsala late on Saturday, the 73-year-old also said it was no longer essential to thrust spiritual and political leadership on one person.

"The Dalai Lamas held temporal and spiritual leadership over the last 400-500 years. It may have been quite useful. But that period is over," the Nobel Prize winner said in the clip, according to a translated transcript.

"Today, it is clear to the whole world that democracy is the best system despite its minor negativities. That is why it is important that Tibetans also move with the larger world community," he said.

The Dalai Lama has suggested before it is up to Tibetans whether they continue with the spiritual institution after he dies, and could order an election among Tibetans abroad.

"When we put the whole responsibility in the person of the Dalai Lama, it is dangerous ... it is appropriate that a democratically elected leader lead a people's movement," he said.

"In reality, a change is happening in the responsibility of the Dalai Lama as the temporal and spiritual leader. This, I think, is very good ... a religious leader having to assume political leadership, that period is over," he said.
"As election takes place every five years, irrespective of whether the Dalai Lama is there or not, the exiled political system will remain secure, stable and sustainable in the long term," he said in the clip broadcast on Saturday.

See the full Reuters news report at
http://uk.news.yahoo.com/22/20090621/tpl-uk-tibet-dalailama-b3150e0.html
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Wednesday, 8 July 2009

Trip To The Roof Of The World

As some of you know well, I am away at the moment...
If everything goes as scheduled I am already in Tibet (proper)!*
It is a trip I have long wanted to make...and have been really looking forward to these few weeks...
I have 30 colour films for my camera. The chances are I am going to probably use them all and even at some point wonder why didn't I get more...but let's see...
It has been a LONG time since I was on a trip and almost as long since I took pictures...I'm really looking forward to it...

Will probably and hopefully post more and much when I get back...

At this moment I'm on The Roof of The World!!!
This is probably the closest to the sky and stars I will get...


* By which I mean TAR (Tibetan Autonomous Region).
I have made several different trips during the span of the last 8 years to other Tibetan regions and areas on the Qing-Tibetan Plateu, to some Tibetan autonomous regions in Si Chuan, Gan Su, Qing Hai and Yun Nan Provinces, but this will be my first trip to the so-called U-Zang region.

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UPDATE:

(The Great Firewall of China doesn't allow me to have the capability of posting a comment in my own blog...so I answer here...)

Hey,Thanks for the comments and encouragement!
Will do my best to post as much as possible about the trip...
"Just a girl", thanks for the interest! I'm quite flattered that my blog has caught the attention of strangers...
Dear M. I laughed at your funny and witty comment (I'm sure it was your intention to make me laugh. It is appreciated), but no, I'm sorry, I didn't meet Karlsson anywhere...hm, some travelers of old claim to have seen levitating/flying Buddhist lamas/monks in Tibet...I was not so fortunate ;)
Saw a few Tibetan antelopes and a couple of wild foxes, many many pilgrims and some monks, marching military and tourists, but no flying humanoids on the Roof...But now that I think about it, I saw at least two snipers, Han Chinese soldiers, based on the roofs of Lhasa...

Sunday, 5 July 2009

Film: Seven Pounds

In an earnest effort to reduce the China-related posts, here is a post about a film that I watched the last couple of days and which impressed me for several reasons...

The film is "Seven Pounds", and though produced and filmed in the United Stated is unconventional for an American movie. Apart from the incredibly talanted performance of Will Smith, the beautiful music, great direction (the same director who made the very beautiful movie "The Pursuit of Happiness" again with Will Smith as the lead actor), etc. the most important that makes this film stand out is the story.

It's a story about goodness, self-sacrifice for the sake of the well-being of others and love. And while I'm sure that the makers of this movie are perhaps completely unaware of it's Buddhist connotations, for me it touched on topics that I am very much emotionally or academicaly interested in...It's actually very closely connected in a way with the topic of my theses - bodily self-sacrifice in order to safe someone else's life...It's also a very unconventional gentle love story involving self-sacrifice. Me, being uncurably romantic and naive as I am, find such story moving, touching and "real".I don't wish to give out more of the plot because it is interesting to watch without knowing what is actually happening.
Highly recommend this film.
It's a film that is very human and thought provoking. The best kind.

Friday, 26 June 2009

Sorrow and Depression

It's been 8 years since I left everything I knew, I left family and friends, and made the life-changing decision of coming to live and study long-term in China. It was a choice I made very resolutely and responsibly. It was a brave thing to do. And I have achieved most of my goals.
It will undoubtedly have great impact on my life.
I have learned a lot, and many things have happened. I have changed a lot.
Recently I'm looking back to this part of my life and think very deeply about what I have found and experienced, what I have seen and felt,
what I am going to leave behind...For several reasons my life in China in the past 3-4 years has not been happy. Actually those of you who know me know well that I was extremely unhappy and sad. There are things that are beyond my power to positively change no matter how hard I try. I feel incredibly broken hearted, saddened, vulnerable, dejected...Each day I wake up and the day feels broken…

I regret very much staying in China the past 3 years. I should have left. Even though I had no "plan". I should have left. I stayed because I felt helpless to make a choice for change. I lacked courage and strength to move on.
I stayed because I was hoping with all of my heart for a positive change, I tried hard, but instead things got worse.
Now with each day closing in on my departure (which for the moment I decided will be somewhere in the end of August) my feeling of helpless sadness and loneliness increases each day and crushes me relentlessly.
Some days the burden of empty and joyless lonely days is unbearable. I feel lost.
It is true that 8 years ago I made a conscious choice to leave everything and come to such a far away country, in a way it is a sort of an "exile".
But being alone in a completely foreign country can be a devastating experience.
I am bearing the toll of my own decisions and choices.
I have no one to blame.

I'm trying to positively look forward to the change that will happen in my life with leaving China, but at this moment it is very hard to imagine that I will find joy and happiness in my life.
Unfortunately for many reasons China has had a damaging impact on most of my dreams, illusions, hopes. I feel much more bitter, much more cynical and negative compared to my usual pessimism, thoughtfulness and oversensitivity...
China was a mysterious place to which I traveled with a wide open heart hoping for enlightenment, knowledge, self-development. For some time I could cope with my loneliness, because there was so many new and different things to discover and experience. But from one point on disillusionments and disappointments just kept on piling up. I lost my sense of purpose.
I feel so utterly disillusioned now that it is hard to imagine that even such an
idealist like me will ever find courage to believe and hope and once again some day find the courage to open my heart to anything or anyone ever again.

These days I feel the burden of all this even more acutely.
It’s so hard to find again courage and strength and hope.

The hardest thing.

"DON'T BE EVIL"

I actually really didn't wanted this BLOG to be a "China Blog", but it seems inevitable, since almost all of my posts are China-related...
This is yet another post about China.

Ahead of the 60th anniversary (on 1st of October later this year) when Communist China was established, OBVIOUSLY China is taking serious measure to make sure everything goes rosy and great for this important for the Party event...
ANYthing that can question, threaten It's authority will be 'harmonized'.
So the censorship machine is rolling relentlessly. As I already pointed out (it turns out others have similar thought and observations the recent Green Dam filtering censorship software might turn out to be an idea that will most probably have the opposite of the sought result...
Some have already noted the short term and long term implications of the enforced censorship...
I'm not sure about that. We must wait and see.
I have NO doubt that the recent Internet crackdowns are not just directed at really preventing porn from harming the young generation...I'm just sure that the purpose(s) is larger and broader...The anti-porn campaign is just giving credibility to the real purposes of the Internet crackdown. More simply put - the aim is control. Control (restriction) of freedom of expression, freedom of information, freedom of disagreement...

And while this Green Dam fiasco might have already backfired and actually prompted some people to become even more anti-censorship savvy and sensitive to the thuggish control coming from the top (some have already protested and even issued a manifesto, see below...), in the long term I'm thinking if this software and other measures actually manage to hold up it will have unimaginable consequences for the majority of the Internet users. And as we well can imagine controlling the Masses is more crucial than controlling everybody...Maybe the Government thinks that that is a risk worth taking.

Those who are more obstinate will find ways to circumvent the "Great Firewall", the others will just complacently put up with it...In the long run, people just accept "reality" and live with it. That's it. There is an amazing Chinese "quality", that always irritates me the most - putting up, indifference and complacency with the current status-quo of things...it is almost a miracle for someone to even question and demand change...Not a big one, even just a small dayly matter one...It's not that Chinese don't see problems or don't mutter under their nose complaining. But it is extremely rare that they will take actual action in improving or changing things...That's my explanation as to why the hell change is so incredibly slow in China. For an extremely dynamic country (perhaps unparalleledly dynamic) real, essentials change takes place with the slowness of eons...

The Chinese are ULRA practical people. If the intrusion is not too great they will just put up with it. There is a line of "tolerance" that if not crossed will just not lead to substantial disruption of the status quo. Ironically the Chinese proud themselves with their "endurance" 忍. And while endurance can actually be a positive quality in many cases it can easily be a negative one. In my view, if you have principles you should stick to them. In many cases Chinese-style "endurance" is actually meaning that they have nothing to stand up for. Nothing to defend, no values they feel strongly about, no principles that are crucial to honorable existence, no dignity. This kind of "endurance" I just don't respect and refuse to accept.

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Meanwhile. China has obviously declared war to Google Inc. After blocking YouTube and Blogger some time ago, on Wednesday all Google services were disrupted, including main search engine, Gmail, Google Talk, etc.
It's an all out Cold War of China VS Google Inc.
Under the pretext that Google's search engine is providing links to porn sites, China is extorting (blackmailing) the popular mega-corporation to make even more compliant to "Chinese law" changes. (China's local search engine Baidu is linking to porn sites undisturbed meanwhile)
Google search already has complied with previous China "requests" for censorship. They will most probably do so now too.

The US government issued a formal protest against the Green Dam software, but the emphasis is on the trade, business aspect of the issue (firms are given the costly ultimatum to provide the questionable software with each PC sold in China after 1st of July)...

Hm. How about human rights issues?!

In some relevance, Yahoo!'s CEO on Thursday said a memorable sentence when asked about the requirements of the Chinese government and their implications for the restriction of freedom of information. (Not Yahoo!'s job to 'fix China': CEO )
She said: It is not Yahoo!'s job to fix the Chinese government.” That’s not the mandate that the shareholders gave us."

Hm, that comes from a company infamous for disclosing information before to the Chinese government which led to the imprisonment of Chinese dissidents...

So. When the question is about money big companies such as Microsoft, Yahoo! and Google with probably think more about profit rather than on loosing trust with "consumers"...
In Google's case, the most free-source and a corporation that has already won the trust and respect of users, whose motto by the way is "Don't Be Evil", siding up with "Evil" in excange of material interests will be a crucial loss of trust and respect. At least on my side...

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Green Dam-ned related blog post and news:

Rebecca MacKinnon who specializes in studying Chinese media and Internet in her BLOG RConversation(blocked in China)in her blog post "China's censorship blowback" observed:
Most of China's educated, largely apolitical, internet-connected urbanites have until now been generally willing to accept the political status quo - and with it a certain amount of censorship, thuggishness and injustice, political paranoia and occasional bizarreness - in exchange for overall social stability (compared to any other time in living Chinese memory), economic growth, plus an impressive increase in China's global power and status. But whoever is driving the latest Internet crackdown and the accompanying moralistic propaganda drive may have done substantial damage to the government's credibility.

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China Blocks Google to Stifle Online Dissent Ahead of Nation's 60th Anniversary

"The U.S. and China are waging a war over the Internet, a war of information. It's a new Cold War," said Li Xiguang, dean of the journalism school at Beijing's Tsinghua University.

A declaration published Thursday by anonymous Chinese Internet users promised that all new efforts at censorship would be met with online sabotage.

"We are the Anonymous Netizens. We have seen your moves on the Internet. You have deprived your netizens of the freedom of speech. You have come to see technology as your mortal enemy," read a translation of the Declaration of the Anonymous Netizens published on a popular English-language blog, The Shanghaiist.

"For the freedom of the Internet, for the advancement of Internetization, and for our rights, we are going to acquaint your censorship machine with systematic sabotage and show you just how weak the claws of your censorship really are," the declaration continued.

Ai Weiwei, a well-known Chinese artist who recently was put under government surveillance for his attempts to create a complete list of children killed in last year's Sichuan earthquake, has called for a boycott of the Internet on July 1 as a protest against the Green Dam software.


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WAR IS PEACE
FREEDOM IS SLAVERY
IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH


The 3 slogans of the Ministry of Truth in Orwell's "1984"

Monday, 22 June 2009

"God Is Great!" - the call of reform in Iran?!

Undoubtedly the biggest world news (which followed soon after North Korea's recent nuke test) are the protests that followed last week's elections in Iran. Days of protests of young Iranian people with the help of world wide web services like tweeter, youtube, etc. have drawn the attention of the world. It turns out Internet has a great role in the organising and reporting of the protests.
After a supposedly fraud election bloody clashes with police and security services have resulted as defience to accepting the re-election of current Iranian President Ahmadinejad.
Since the Iranian Revolution these are the biggest and most tumult times in Iran. No doubt there will be a change. Let's hope that change will be for the better!
According to reports, in Tehran, cries of protesters, "God Is Great!" echo in the night...

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In some relation.
In view of the events in Iran and the Internet role in the anti-government (pro-democratic, pro-reform) movement, NYTimes op-ed columnist Nicholas Kristof wrote a piece urging the support of anti-Internet censorship tools...*

Tear Down This Cyber Wall
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/06/18/opinion/18kristof.html?_r=2

Hm, I'm thinking. Chinese authorities and censors no doubt are watching (and learning)from the current situation of Iran...
What happens in Iran will no doubt be crucial not only for Iranians but also for the World.
The irony in the similiraty of Internet control (censorship) between the two countries is that Internet censorship has and is encouraging anti-authoritarian sentiments. Iranians are among the people who as a result of government consorship and control have become very savvy as to circumventing Internet censorship and control. Internet defience is not necessary equal to political defience, at least initialy, but too obvious censorship can have a very unexpected side-effect.
A situation very similar to that in China...
Recent stepping up of Internet control in China may turn out to have the oposite of the wanted effect...
And that can turn dangerous...

*By the way this post is made possible with the help of such tools...

China's New Censorship Softwear Tool Green Dam's Currious Black List of Words

The "hot" topic of the last few days has been the new controvercial requirement made by the Chinese government for the installing of a "filter"-software called "Green Dam Youth Escort" which is to be included (pre-installed or otherwise provided) with each new computer sold after the 1st of July. While under the pretext it is to prevent youth from the harmful pornography and violence contents on the Internet, many people have already expressed serious doubts not only about implementing the order, but also the quality of the product...But most importantly it is very dubious what exactly the purpose of this softwear is. Is it really preventing and protecting youth from porn and violence or is it yet another effort (and at that not a very subtle one) to curb freedom of information?!

Recently on Wikileaks (http://wikileaks.org/wiki/A_technical_analysis_of_the_Chinese_'Green_Dam_Youth-Escort'_censorship_software)
there appeared a technical analysis of the said software.

The other day I spend some time carefully studying the linked list of non-pornographic words' black list.
It is just amazing what kind of words are deemed dangerous!!!

Green Dam black word list
http://www.fast-box.net/browse.php?u=czovL2RvY3MuZ29vZ2xlLmNvbS9WaWV3P2lkPWFoMjd4ejRwYno2c18yNGM2ZHcyN2c2&b=13

Now reading this list carefully one is struck with the following absurdities. Never mind the obvious forbidden topics, i.e. "the usual suspects" such as FalunGong, Tiananmen "6.4 accident", Dalai Lama, human rights, officials corruption etc., there appear to be words in this list that one wonders why are they considered dangerous, the most absurd is the including of words such as gratitude, moral conduct, goodness, Confucianism...?! Hm, wasn't this software supposed to prevent youth from "harmful content"?!! How exactly does words such as humanity, humanism, goodness, etc. figure in being dangerous and harmful?!

Another inexplicable feature is the inclusion of the names of cities and countries...If you want to search for Australia, Amsterdam or Ukraine for instance you'll be prevented from opening such contents. One wonders why the hell names of countries and cities are deemed sensitive?!
But the most obvious target (apart from FaLunGong which appears to be the main target of the software judging from the black wordlist contents and particular obsession with the forbidden sect)seem to be all terms and ideas connected with Buddhism...
Buddha, Guanyin and Amitabha Buddha are obviously dangerous and harmful to the "healthy" growth of the future Chinese generation?!
It's no joke. Most basic Buddhist terms are in this black list : karma, karmic retribution, reincarnation are in the blacklist. But the wordlist is far from subtle. It is obvious that the "target" is religion and believes of all kind. Not only Buddhism is considered dangerous (monk, nun, temple, praying to Buddha, scriptures are obviously "dangerous" words), all sorts of basic words that have to do with religion are considered dangerous...priest, church...But definitely Buddhism is the main target. Practically some of the basic terms that appear in Buddhism are "dirty words"?!

So now it appears that "Buddha" is a dirty word?!!!

Who is the crazy, insane/ incompetent person who made up the list?!

It's ironic that those same people beat the drum of the so-called 5000 years of Chinese culture and history.
But, damn it, without Buddhism and Buddhist culture, China's culture doesn't come up to much isn't it?!!
Daoism and Daoist priests (and also Confucianism) figure in the blacklist, so one wonders what is not harmful to the Chinese youth if Chinese culture itself is in the blacklist...Perhaps money and stock and shares...?!!

I get the feeling that this softwear as many other Chinese intiatives was so badly conrived that it will instead of doing the "job" it was set to do it will backfire...
Already it has a very ironic side-effect of drawing riducule from people who otherwise will remain politically indifferent.

I have no doubt that this is (mostly) a (it appears badly contrived) political softwear. Not to mention the dubious fact that this is a state-inplemented monopol and there is the question of the huge amount of taxpayers money that will enter in a particular someone's pockets...Ironically, "corruption" is in the blacklist of "dirty/dangerous words"...

Friday, 19 June 2009

Sadness

I haven't posted for a while...My last post is 10 days old.
Meanwhile I was away from Beijing for a week down to Canton (Guangdong Province) for a (well-paid) translation job...
That makes my plan to go on a trip to Tibet (a trip I'm really looking forward to and hope it will happen) in the beginning of July possible, which of course is the reason I took up this job in the first place...
Actually in a way it was an interesting experience. It gave me an insight into part of China’s reality I haven’t experienced before…There is a lot I can say and recount about those 6 days, but I will do this in another post in the coming days...
These days I just don't feel like writing...

Meanwhile.I came back 2 days ago and it feels so strange...
The truth is I feel an immense feeling of emptiness and sadness...
I can't help but feel very depressed. Even more than usual.
The problem is I know the reasons for my depression very well.
Time passes relentlessly. Days, weeks, months pass and I don't seem to be able to fix and mend things I wanted and needed so much to fix and positively change...I have almost no hope left that things will improve even a little bit.
It makes me feel very helpless and incredibly sad.
I don't know what to do anymore...
I really don't know.

I hope with all of my heart things can somehow miraculously turn for the better. Somehow. I don't hope for impossible things. I just hope to have a chance to make things better.

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Three days ago, on June 16th, was my birthday. I got a stuffed grey plush dolphin as a present from a stranger in a bar in one of the most boring/depressing towns I have visited ever.
I usually don't much celebrate birthdays and holidays anyway, but my feeling of loneliness increased acutely...

The “Six Why”'s of The Party

A post by David Bandurski on China Media Project (a blog I follow and respect) points out another recent Orwellian-like Party directive dubbed the "Six Why"'s...
Issued just a day after the 20th anniversary of the 1989 Tiananmen events it is giving out a sign about what will the Party try to maintain lest to keep the Great Wall of "Socialism with Chinese Characteristics" (whatever that means) from toppling down...

go to:

Because forsaking Marxism means toppling the Great Wall
http://cmp.hku.hk/2009/06/19/1668/

解读“六个为什么”(has the original text in Chinese on the CCTV website)
http://news.cctv.com/special/lgwsm/01/

Tuesday, 9 June 2009

The Tank Man - more reflections and angles on the Tiananmen 20th Anniversary


One of the most strong and iconic images from 20 years ago (and one of the most important news photo of all time) is the photograph of a man standing in front of a row of tanks advancing on the Changan Avenue (the most important boulevard in Beijing with a completely contrasting name which ironically means, The Avenue of Everlasting Tranquility).The anonymous pedestrian dubbed "the Tank Man" ,blocked a row of tanks, producing one of the iconic images of that event.
Few images are more recognizable or more evocative. Known simply as “tank man,” it is one of the most famous photographs in recent history.

Twenty years ago, on June 5, 1989, following weeks of massive protests in Beijing and a crackdown that resulted in the deaths of hundreds, a lone man stepped in front of a column of tanks rumbling past Tiananmen Square. The moment instantly became a symbol of the protests as well as a symbol against oppression worldwide — an anonymous act of defiance seared into our collective consciousnesses.



Recently on the Lens Blog on the New York Times site there is a sort of a research on the origins and different versions of the image. It is VERY interesting!

There was not just one “tank man” photo. At least four photographers captured the encounter that day from the Beijing Hotel, overlooking Changan Avenue (the Avenue of Eternal Peace), their lives forever linked by a single moment in time. They shared their recollections with The Times through e-mail.
Here are two links to related posts:

http://lens.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/06/03/behind-the-scenes-tank-man-of-tiananmen/
http://lens.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/06/04/behind-the-scenes-a-new-angle-on-history/

I found these links following a post at the China Blog at the Time.com site. It's a blog that is blocked in China since at least 2 months. Here is the link to the corresponding post:
A New Perspective on Tank Man
http://www.fast-box.net/browse.php?u=Oi8vY2hpbmEuYmxvZ3MudGltZS5jb20vMjAwOS8wNi8wOC9hLW5ldy1wZXJzcGVjdGl2ZS1vbi10YW5rLW1hbi8%3D&b=5

Also check out this photo essay on the Tank Man on Time.com:
http://www.time.com/time/photoessays/2009/tiananmen_20_franklin/

Also, Tiananmen anniversary connected an article and a post. The article is by John Pomfret in the Washington Post. The post is on Room For Debate blog on the New York Times.com site.
John Pomfret is one of the accused "anti-China" journalists who has a firsthand experience of the events in Beijing from 20 years ago since at that time he was a correspondent for the Associated Press. His article discusses a topic that also interests me very much, i.e. how has the CCP managed to stay in power and even make its position even more secure after such a breach of public confidence as the events in Beijing 20 years ago showed.

After Tiananmen, China Wedded Force With Freedom
John Pomfret
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2009/06/05/AR2009060501970.html

China’s New Rebels (on the Room for Debate Blog on the New York Times site)
http://roomfordebate.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/06/02/chinas-new-rebels/

"You've Been Harmonized"- China Demands New PCs Have Web Site-blocking Program

Almost the biggest Chinese news from yeasterday and today is the report that China will require that Web filtering software be included with all computers sold in the country after 1st July. According to The Wall Street Journal on Monday, China's Ministry of Industry and Information Technology sent computer makers a notice on May 19 that PCs to be sold in China as of July 1 must be preloaded with the software.
The program would either be installed on the hard drive or enclosed on a compact disc, the newspaper reported, adding that PC makers would be required to tell authorities how many PCs they have shipped with the software.

OBVIOUSLY it's another step up in Chinese government's efforts to control pornography, but more significantly to control other 'sensitive' content on the Internet. After the recent 'anti-porn' Internet campaign during which under the pretext of cracking down on porn China shut down numerous websites and blogs which of course have nothing to do with pornography, the CCP government takes the "harmonizing" one step further - a softwear. (See bellow the AP report about the possible uses of the softwear.)

While the manufactorer Jinhui Computer System Engineering claims that the purpose of the software (called Green Dam Youth Escort in Chinese) is to prevent children from surfing prornografic content, one very important and significant ability of the program is to be noted:
Jinhui's Web site says its program also prevents the use of proxy servers or circumvention software to visit banned sites, measures often used by savvy Internet users in China.

Now that is obviously meant to stop/'escort'/ PC users from surfing politically 'sensitive' sites, etc. The move obviously is meant to give the Chinese government even more control over what users are viewing on the Internet.

Acording to reports China has hundreds of millions of web users, a number that grows each day. Without control who knows what can happen.
No doubt vulgar, pornographic, lewd and obsene content is controlled in other countries too (and in my view it should be), BUT controlling political content and free expression is not OK.
In China pornographic content is called "yellow"黄色,in a perverse twist the Party equals dissent views to pornography.

But when the Party says 'harmony', it means it!

China requires PCs to come with anti-porn software (AP)
http://tech.yahoo.com/news/ap/20090608/ap_on_hi_te/as_china_internet_12

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Through such mechanisms as network-level filters installed at the nation's Internet service providers, the government routinely blocks political sites, especially ones it considers socially destabilizing such as sites that challenge the ruling Communist Party, promote democratic reform or advocate independence for Tibet.
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John Palfrey, an Internet censorship expert at Harvard University, described the latest requirements as "a potential game changer in the story of Internet control," by moving China's "Great Firewall" closer to the user, where censorship can be more effective.

Although users can unblock sites or uninstall the software, many won't bother or know how, Palfrey said. There's also the possibility of the software leaving traces, he said, giving users a false sense of security if the software blocks or monitors usage anyhow — or giving users enough uncertainty that they'll practice self-censorship.

"One of the most effective parts of China's controls is self-censorship, the perception that you are being watched or blocked," Palfrey said in an interview from Washington, D.C.

And though the software isn't currently designed for monitoring usage, Palfrey said a future update could give it surveillance capabilities, something easier to implement once the basic software is already on PCs. (AP) !!!!!!!

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China Demands New PCs Have Web Site-blocking Program (PC World)
http://tech.yahoo.com/news/pcworld/20090608/tc_pcworld/chinademandsnewpcshavewebsiteblockingprogram_1

China Rising? - news feeds

For the past couple of weeks and more while I was busy with writing my thesis, its defence, etc. several news caught my attention and I made a point to post about them. Meanwhile some time has passed,and maybe some are quite "old news", but since I believe that they say much about the current Chinese society I think it's worthwhile to at least point out to them with links and brief comments.

The FIRST news feed is a report about child traficking and kidnapping, a topic on which I commented in a previous post.
I have no comment to add to what I previously said.

Child kidnappers arrested in China: state media (AFP)
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20090529/wl_asia_afp/chinacrimechildkidnap_20090529083710

The SECOND piece of news is somewhat connected to the first since it is about human traficking. It is a news about released slaves. Yes, I haven't misspelled, slaves. Hm, I think the report speaks for itself. It also makes one remember a scandal a couple of years back when hundreds of kiln slaves were released.
This happens in a country that CLAIMS to be a socialist country, and aspires to become a world power!

Police free 32 mentally-handicapped from forced labor, arrest 10 suspects(Xinhua)
http://news.xinhuanet.com/english/2009-05/22/content_11418308.htm

10 arrested in east China over brick kiln slavery
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090522/ap_on_re_as/as_china_slavery_1

BEIJING – Police in eastern China have arrested 10 men for allegedly enslaving mentally handicapped people who were forced to work at brick kilns and endure beatings, an officer said Friday.
A total of 32 people were freed in an April 28 raid on the kilns located on the outskirts of the city of Jieshou in Anhui province, the police officer said, confirming a report by the official Xinhua News Agency.
The victims were all mentally handicapped people between the ages of 25 and 45, said the officer, who declined to give her name as is common with Chinese officials.
The boss of the operation told police he bought the laborers from a taxi driver in neighboring Shandong province who had picked them up off the street, the officer said. The victims were forced to work up to 10 hours per day with no pay and beaten if they refused.
Investigations were continuing to uncover more evidence about trafficking links, the officer said.
Hundreds of brick kiln slaves, many of them handicapped, were freed in raids in 2007 in northern China.

THIRDLY.
An interesting article in the New York Times about the demolition of the ancient town of Kashgar.
The report shows a very typical attitude of the Chinese towards old architecture and buildings with cultural significance that should be preserved - raze it and rebuild. Then say it's thousand years old. Thus China is full of ancient buildings that are brand new.
Another issue is that in the name of "progress", "modernisation", "security" Han Chinese manage to successfully destroy not only what remains of their own culture, but also that of other nationalities living in the territory of China. In this case the completely distinct from Han Chinese Muslim culture of the uigurs without much asking them.

To Protect an Ancient City, China Moves to Raze It
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/05/28/world/asia/28kashgar.html?_r=1&pagewanted=all



FOURTH and last in this list of news is a topic much talked about in the media (sex themed articles obviously sell well and atract much attention. For a few days only numerous articles on the topic appeared in blogs and official media outlets). I decided to post about it too because for me it shows the chaos in Chinese society as concerns the absence of ethics, morals and values. Prehaps I'm too concervative in a way and a sex themed park is something that in principle in my view is a bad taste cheap vulgar entertainment that has no positive value.




But in the case of a Chinese one more other issues are involved.
In China prostitution, sexual promiscuity, debauchery, adultery are shockingly common. They are as common as smoking and eating. That common.
In their most ugly and vulgar forms.
In my observation Chinese are very far from being conservative, on the contrary. But to me they are extremely underdeveloped and backward in their understanding.
And while some people point out that China is yet to experience "sexual revolution" they are obviously misunderstanding reality. China doesn't need sexual revolution, China needs a little bit of "feminism". Chinese women appear very 'tough', even seem to be 'in charge' (seriously I have seen and heard men being bossed around, even hit and beaten by their girfriends, wifes, etc. which for one thing showes agression), but when it comes to understanding of sex they are living in the middle ages. Debauchery, adultery, prostitution and promiscuity are NOT signs of "sexual liberation". In fact they point to the oposite.
Hm, I guess I sound like a 'feminist' (and in fact I'm actually not), but it is deplorable to see men treating women like things, commodities, driven by lust and women obediently playing a part in this men's world. It is EXTREMELY rare to actually see someone feeling anything. Not just emotion, but a true feeling. Not lust, but love.

Love of course is non-existent.
Hm, I have a "theory" that love has never existed in China, but on that some other time.

I got a bit carried away... Back to the sex theme park.
The incredibly ugly (and offensive) statue which was supposed to stay at the entrance of the park would have stirred the anger of feminists in other more advanced parts of the world.

A Controversial Sex Park in Guandong Province that stired debate:

China builds first sex theme park
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/8053596.stm

'Evil' China sex park torn down: state media (AFP)
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20090518/lf_afp/lifestylechinasexoffbeat_20090518161745

Staid in China: Yet-to-open sex park demolished (AP)
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090518/ap_on_re_as/as_china_sex_park_demolished_6

The demolition highlights conflicted views on sex in modern China, where a prudish attitude toward discussion of sexuality is paired with an almost clinical approach to its physical aspects.
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While pornography is banned and sex education largely unheard of, shops selling sex toys and related items stand out prominently in many neighborhoods and sex outside marriage is widely tolerated. Prostitution, while technically illegal, is widespread, and the keeping of mistresses among prominent businessmen and Communist Party officials is considered commonplace.
(AP)

Monday, 8 June 2009

The Umbrella Men - Undercover Policemen prevent media from reporting on Tiananmen Square (updated)

Here is some black humor about the Anniversary.

This is a video from BBC, showing BBC's Beijing correspondent James Reynolds trying to get on the Square on the 4th of June, two plainclothes policemen stand in front of the camera with open umbrellas.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/asia-pacific/8082604.stm

Also below is a VERY funny version of this video with the original sound replaced with a song "The Umbrella Man".

http://video.yahoo.com/watch/5237156/13823434

I tried to embed the videos here, but it doesn't seem to be working...

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Also another amusing piece I wish to recommend here also connected with the anniversary is a black humor story (in Chinese) "An account of an ordinary citizen's adventure",posted on the Douban Blog.Below is the link to the original post. (Sorry, no English version for those of you who don't read Chinese.)
Obviously the story was written about this very Thursday. Inside I can see some of my own experiences on that day which independently proves most of my observations. It is a VERY good satire piece. Some of the parts are just great!

小市民奇遇记

author:十七只猫和鱼
http://www.fast-box.net/browse.php?u=Oi8vd29lc2VyLm1pZGRsZS13YXkubmV0LzIwMDkvMDYvYmxvZy1wb3N0XzA3Lmh0bWw%3D&b=13&f=frame

UPDATE. Last time it turns out the link to this black humor story I posted doesn't work (maybe it was "harmonized"?). I'm posting a link which goes to Tibetan writer Woeser's Blog were the story was re-posted.

Judging from posts on the net it turns out that many people have been to the Square (or tried to get there) that day. Strangelly enough we all picked the afternoon and more or less observed the same things. It's good to know somebody actually remembered the date...I wonder what if we all happened to go at the same time?!

See for instance two James Fallows Blog posts:
1. About his attempt to go to Tiananmen on the eve of the 4th when the Square was off-limits
http://jamesfallows.theatlantic.com/archives/2009/06/this_evening_in_beijing.php
2.The account of his wife who went there on the 4th and managed to visit the Square and observed the same orchestrated "crowd" of "visitors".
For instance her experience with her bag being searched, etc. and her estimate that at least 85% of the people on the square were undercover or outright security personnel coincides with my observation...
http://jamesfallows.theatlantic.com/archives/2009/06/june_4_report_1_beijing.php
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Notes from a Non-anniversary
(a post I saw at the China Beat Blog)
http://www.fast-box.net/browse.php?u=Oi8vdGhlY2hpbmFiZWF0LmJsb2dzcG90LmNvbS8yMDA5LzA2L25vdGVzLWZyb20tbm9uLWFubml2ZXJzYXJ5Lmh0bWw%3D&b=5

Sunday, 7 June 2009

The Gate Of Heavenly Peace - June 4th 2009

No doubt June 4th is a special day in modern Chinese history. This week's Thursday was the 20th anniversary of the military crackdown on 5 weeks of protests in Beijing that ended in massacre.

The CCP government used force against unarmed civilians. Some people say that it is not entirely correct to call those protests "pro-democracy" since there was no coherent agenda to unite all of the protesters. What is undeniable though is that the young people of Beijing (university students were at the “helm” of events, including and very prominently students from the university in which I study), with a big support from workers, teachers and many others, wanted change, so if not "pro-democracy", I think the events can be called “pro-change”. Reports say that during those few weeks of protests in Beijing and other cities and towns of China there were hudreds of thousands if not millions of people who joined the anti-government protests. It is not clear how many, but at least a few hundred people were killed on the eve of June 4th 1989.
The "anti-revolutionary political hooliganism" (the way the Party still calls the events) was crushed with bloodshed.



20 years later a lot has changed in China and Chinese society. Mostly material change. Actually in many aspects China now is the synonym of change. But in my view and understanding the rapid change around is more or less only on the surface. (Some deeper and conceavably far-reaching changes are also taking place, but I remain very sceptical of their value.)
But most importantly, one thing HAS NOT changed. The same (and only) ruling Party that ordered the army to crush the protests is still in power. The portrait of Chairman Mao is still overlooking one of the ugliest and depressing squares in the World - Tiananmen Squire.
With a "carrot and stick" policy 20 years on since it ordered massacre towards its own unarmed civilians The Party has managed not only to stay in power (something unimaginable in a democracy), but also manages to convince the masses that ONLY under the guidance of The Party China can "progress and prosper". So 20 years from the pro-change protests, many important things have not changed. China IS still an authoritarian contry where security and stability overwrite almost every basic human right. No dissent or varying view is allowed.
20 years ago the government/Party ordered the Peoples Army's (!)tanks to roll over unarmed civilans, but Beijingers today look as if suffering from a severe case of amnesia.
As if nothing has happened. Life goes on.

On Thursday, the 20th anniversary of the "Tiananmen events" I was curious to see what kind of measures will the CCP take for Tiananmen on this sensitive anniversary day, so I decided to go and see the square on that day. I suggested it to a Chinese classmate and we decided to go in the afternoon, and a classmate of his came along with us. So the 3 of us took the subway heading for the center of Beijing. We got of one stop before Qian Men (which is the nearest subway stop on line 2, but we assumed will be closed). So we got off at He Ping Men and walked for a while towards the square. That day was exceptionally hot, before and at noon the sun was scorching, but when we started off from the university the sky was cloudy and it looked like rain.
Walking on we saw policemen watching and patrolling the streets, although it was one stop away from the square itself. As we approached we saw security increasing and by the time we got in sight of Tiananmen we saw heavy security presence, plainclothes policemen, guards and policemen in uniform all over the place.
I have read that the previous two days the Square was cordoned off and no visitors were allowed, but I also read Thursday morning in Western media that on June 4th the Square is open and that there is an impressive number of plain-clothes policemen, guards, uniformed policemen all over the squire.
We and all visitors to the sprawling plaza in central Beijing were stopped at checkpoints (underground passways leading to the square which otherwise is cordoned off by short steel fences) and were searched. Obviously, foreigners (such as me), were singled out and bags were also hand searched (apart from X-Rayed). The policeman who was standing after the X-Ray machine was busy with a bunch of other foreigners so he didn’t notice me, when I slipped and followed after my Chinese friends. I overheard him asking (both in Chinese and English) the foreigners if they were journalists. Later I saw foreigners turned away at checkpoints and media reports confirm that foreign television crews and photographers were firmly turned away, which I can confirm to be true, since apart from me there were only a few other foreigners on the square at that time.
When we went up on the square what struck us immediately were the tourist busses parked behind Mao’s mausoleum, something otherwise uncommon. Also a large part of the tourists were wearing badges with the national emblem of China, a fact that looked suspicious to me. Many others (I presume, plainclothes policemen, wearing badges with the national flag, were walking around looking almost intently on us.
Uniformed and plainclothes officers, easily identifiable by their similar shirts, seemingly outnumbered tourists.
Actually we stood out in a way. Me wearing a black blouse, black skirt and black sandals (deliberately, see Wear White Day post), my friend and classmate-of-sorts L.X. wearing a white T-shirt with the name of our university, and his classmate also wearing a white T-shirt and slippers. Obviously we stood-out, hm, especially me in my black "attire".
Later on there was a strange drizzle from which we hid in one of the north underpasses, and then we came back again on the square. Obviously, because we stood at one place for a while we caught the attention of security, and when we decided we should start moving an uniform policeman waived at us to approach him, showed us his police badge (I guess that was for my sake, because his attitude was "textbook") and wanted to see the identification of my two Chinese friends. After they gave him their students cards, he asked them (not addressing me): “And this person is…?”, meaning me...I immediately said (in Chinese) that I’m a classmate and I also presented my student card ID. The policeman then asked my friend to open his backpack and see its contents. There was a laptop and a copy of my graduation thesis which a gave him a couple of hours before. Then the policemen asked us what we were doing on Tiananmen. My friend’s classmate said we were having a meal at a nearby restaurant (a lie) and just came for a walk. Convinced or not, he murmured that our university is a “good university” and let us go. We decided we have stayed long enough on the square (meanwhile I have (deliberately) taken my picture in front of Mao’s mausoleum and in-between two uniform guards in front of the Heroes Monument, in both occasions making the victory sign with my hand. A symbolic gesture, my very humble way of protest) so we headed for the northern underpass exit. Thus our visit to Tiananmen Square, "The Gate of Heavenly Peace",ended.
Heading for a subway entrance we continued on foot for a while on Changan Avenue, "The Avenue of Long Tranquility", hm, another name that is contradictory to historical and actual events. On this same avenue (the main street in the center of Beijing) 20 years ago the army tanks approached to crush the protests...

Even if someone wanted to protest there were enough measures to make this protest either impossible or in the best, short-lived.
In fact most of the people we saw on the squire that day were either undercover or outright security, or were provincial middle age tourists. One of the stark difference with 20 years ago was that, apart from the 3 of us maybe there were no other students on the square.
And this fact says much, I think.
Even these 2 Chinese guys came to Tiananmen because I came up with the idea. I do not believe that they would have done so without my suggestion…
So all of this makes me think very deeply about things.

Is it decades of brainwashing, is it fear, is it innate utilitarianism, or is it being generally apolitical that makes young and/or educated people of today so selfishly apathetic to the obvious flaws in Chinese society? The stark differences between poor and rich, the absence of law and order, the corruption, the moral and ethical decay, the violation of basic rights, the authoritarian system that suffocates ANY different view, etc, etc.…How come NONE of those very obvious problems doesn’t raise any protests?! Why?!

What is the price for staying silent?!


news feeds:
Police Swarm Tiananmen Square to Bar Protests
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/06/05/world/asia/05beijing.html

China security tight in Tiananmen
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20090604/ts_nm/us_china_tiananmen_17

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With this post I really wanted to embed the picture of the "tank man", one of the most famous reportage photos in the world, but I couln't...Blogspot is still blocked and posting (especially embedding images) is really not easy...

Thursday, 4 June 2009

Message on the Twentieth Anniversary of Tiananmen Square by Hillary Rodnam Clinton

Below is the full text of the message as seen on the webpage of the US Department of State. Since it IS an important message I'm posting it here, instead of merely giving a link.
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Message on the Twentieth Anniversary of Tiananmen Square
by Hillary Rodham Clinton

Secretary of State

Washington, DC

June 3, 2009

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On this the 20th anniversary of the violent suppression of demonstrations in Tiananmen Square by Chinese authorities, we should remember the tragic loss of hundreds of innocent lives and reflect upon the meaning of the events that preceded that day.

Hundreds of thousands of protesters took to the streets for weeks, in Beijing and around the country, first to honor the late reformist leader Hu Yaobang and then to demand basic rights denied to them.

A China that has made enormous progress economically, and that is emerging to take its rightful place in global leadership, should examine openly the darker events of its past and provide a public accounting of those killed, detained or missing, both to learn and to heal.

This anniversary provides an opportunity for Chinese authorities to release from prison all those still serving sentences in connection with the events surrounding June 4, 1989. We urge China to cease the harassment of participants in the demonstrations and begin dialogue with the family members of victims, including the Tiananmen Mothers. China can honor the memory of that day by moving to give the rule of law, protection of internationally-recognized human rights, and democratic development the same priority as it has given to economic reform.

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Also in this line:

US Congress urges China to free Tiananmen inmates
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20090603/wl_asia_afp/chinapoliticsrightsuscongress_20090603031336

Statement on the 20th Anniversary of the Tiananmen Square of HH the 14th Dalai Lama
(since the site is blocked in China I'm directly posting links that make it accesible)
http://www.fast-box.net/browse.php?u=Oi8vd3d3LmRhbGFpbGFtYXdvcmxkLmNvbS90b3BpYy5waHA%2FcD00NjA%3D&b=13&f=frame (in Chinese)
http://www.fast-box.net/browse.php?u=Oi8vd3d3LmRhbGFpbGFtYS5jb20vbmV3cy4zODMuaHRt&b=13&f=frame (in English)

Wednesday, 3 June 2009

China blocks more sites ahead of anniversary

Apart from Google owned YouTube (since March) and Blogger (since middle of May) which were already blocked earlier, as of Tuesday China censors have blocked access also to Twitter, Bing, Flickr, Opera, Live, Wordpress and Hotmail...
That is this is added to the sites which are blocked always anyway, like Amnesty International, Human Rights Watch, Reporters Without Borders...the list goes on and on...



20 years later China still thinks it can hide its skeletons in the wardrobe.
Or judging from the apathy and silence of the Chinese citizens, maybe it can?!

China blocks websites ahead of Tiananmen anniversary (Reuters)

Tuesday, 2 June 2009

A very interesting Chinese report on Tibet

A couple of weeks ago I came upon a report on Tibet in Chinese that although filled with Marxist terms etc is very interesting to read...Since I haven't posted here for a long time I didn't comment on it meanwhile.
I read the report as soon as I accidentally stumbled upon it on Internet (the link was at the Tibetan poet Woeser's blog).
The report is mainly remarkable for the fact that it is a Chinese report, written by Chinese. Recently TIME had an article about it. The International Campaign for Tibet (the site is of course blocked in China) has an English translation of the report.
Below I post some of the contents of the ICT article, and at the end of this post are the links to both the original Chinese text and the English translation of the report.
It is very worth to read this report.

The article at TIME:
Failed Government Policies Sparked Tibet Riots: Reporthttp://news.yahoo.com/s/time/20090526/wl_time/08599190089900

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A bold and remarkable new report by a group of Chinese scholars in Beijing challenges the official position that the Dalai Lama “incited” the protests that broke out in Tibet in March 2008, and outlines key failings in the policy of the government of the People's Republic of China (PRC) on Tibet. The report, which is translated into English by International Campaign for Tibet (http://www.savetibet.org/media-center/ict-news-reports/bold-report-beijing-scholars-reveals-breakdown-china%E2%80%99s-tibet-policy), is the first such analysis from inside China and comes at a time of crackdown in Tibet when the PRC government is taking an increasingly hardline position against the Dalai Lama.

Until now, the report which was posted online on May 12, 2009, has appeared only online in Chinese and it is unlikely to be disseminated publicly in China. It is the result of a month-long investigation by a Beijing-based lawyers’ organization and thinktank called Gongmeng (Open Constitution Initiative). The report’s authors, several of whom attended the prestigious Beijing University Law School, conclude that China’s strategies to ensure ‘stability’ in Tibet have failed, and that China’s propaganda offensive has created divisions and further exacerbated tensions.

The authors of the report state: “Even though research was carried out in the field for only a month, we deeply sensed the popular discontent and anger behind the incidents [of the spring 2008 protests], and the complexity of their social roots… An important perspective for interpreting the 3.14 incident [March 14, 2008, when protesting turned to violence in Lhasa] is that it was reaction made under stress by a society and people to the various changes that have been taking place in their lives over the past few decades. The notion that appears impossible to understand is the implication that reasonable demands were being vented, and this is precisely what we need to understand and reflect upon.”

The authors cite as a contributing factor to the protests that began in March 2008 the high levels of marginalization among Tibetans as a result of Chinese economic policies, saying: “From the level of actual benefits, the current rapid process of modernization has not given the ordinary Tibetan people any greater developmental benefits; indeed, they are becoming increasingly marginalized.” The report also refers to deepening rural-urban inequality in Tibetan areas, and notes the government policy of not interfering with the numbers of Chinese migrants flooding into Tibetan cities, and the undermining of the Tibetan language leading to disempowerment of Tibetans.

The report notes that in Lhasa, taxi drivers are mainly non-Tibetan, travel agencies are nearly all owned by outsiders, tourist stalls are not owned by Tibetans, and large numbers of Chinese work in businesses and the tourism industry. The scholars relate the impressions of a taxi-driver from the Chinese interior in Lhasa, who said: “When the land you’re accustomed to living in, and the land of the culture you identify with, when the lifestyle and religiosity is suddenly changed into a ‘modern city’ that you no longer recognize; when you can no longer find work in your own land, and feel the unfairness of lack of opportunity, and when you realize that your core value systems are under attack, then the Tibetan people’s panic and sense of crisis is not difficult to understand.”

The Open Constitution Initiative report is carefully worded, presenting its arguments in Marxist language typical of that seen in much of China’s social sciences, and it frequently quotes phrases and vocabulary used by the Chinese Communist Party leadership. Perhaps exercising the same caution, and possibly based on an intention not to alienate policy-makers, the report portrays the issue of Tibet only as one of governance and policy, without exploring the more politically sensitive issue of the relationship between Tibet and China, nor do they go so far as to use the concept of colonialism to describe the situation in Tibet.

One of the most important points in the report, which has led to intense debate among Chinese and Tibetan bloggers since it was posted, is the way in which a virulent propaganda campaign has stoked divisions among Chinese and Tibetans. The scholars say: “The ensuing over-propagandizing of “violence” was used to make the 3.14 incident ever larger, which created certain oppositional ethnic sentiments… Such propaganda actions are in the long run detrimental to ethnic unity. The fascination that Han citizens have expressed toward Tibetan culture changed to fear and hatred of the Tibetan masses.”

The new report by the Open Constitution Initiative is the first investigative report on the protests last year and the Tibet situation, based on fieldwork and analysis. The full text of the report is available in Chinese here, and the English translation by the International Campaign for Tibet here.

Monday, 1 June 2009

thesis defence



My defense (of my master graduation thesis) was yesterday afternoon.
These past days have been completely overwhelming and utterly exhausting for me. I had very little time to write my thesis. I actually wrote it in more or less than a week, which for a 80, 000 character 115 page paper is not enough...
It was completely physically and emotionally exhausting.
But it passed.

The defense yesterday was not that bad as the Cultural Revolution poster would suggest (the characters mean “Big Criticism” or “Big Judging“)
I meant it as a joke…

Actually it was rather relaxed and friendly. All the teachers I have known for some time and their attitude was more or less favorable.
Actually most of the views they expressed were rather positive and encouraging.
It was the first time I have actually heard so much constructive and useful critique and advice in all my years here in this university.
I really regret they didn't tell me those things all the time...
I had the honour of a teacher and a couple of friends coming especially to hear my defense.
And just now a few minutes ago my advisor gave me a call to tell me to take more rest and relax which was unexpectedly very kind of him.
I am very happy for all this attention now at the end of my 7 years here.
It means a lot to me to be able to leave with more hope and strength.

So, yesterday was an important day of my life.
I turned the page of almost a decade.
It's a big deal.

But where to from now on?
I really don't know what will happen...

The Road Goes Ever On And On...

Wear White Day : "six-four"



Only a couple of days from today, on Thursday June the 4th falls the 20th anniversary of one of the most important events in modern Chinese history - the military suppression of the Chinese young people's call for change in 1989. The government ordered the army to open fire, and crush unarmed civilians with tanks. It doesn't matter exactly how many where killed, hundreds or thousands. What matters is that they were killed by their government. The same government that rules today and uses much more subtle ways to suppress the dissent views, variety of ideas, discussion, critique, doubt or wish for political and social change.



The events that ended in the massacre on the eve of the 4th of June 20 years ago were called "counter-revolutionary rebellion" and for most Chinese today are successfully pushed into obscurity. Obscurity caused by fear or by apathy.On the other hand, the Government "understands" the (Han)Chinese people very well. The Chinese are possibly the most utilitarian, materialistic people of the world. There was a very smart way to rule the masses that the Roman empire invented two thousand of years ago and the Party uses well - "bread and spectacle".The Party has also added one more ingredient - nationalism.So the tactic for the masses is improve the economy and put as much incredibly debilitating and low-quality programs and adds as possible on TV, etc.Make people become consumers and not citizens.The (fake) Marxist materialist communist ideology helps too."But the tradeoff has been that young Chinese have no real role in shaping their country’s future — and may not be very interested in having one."
Actually as a matter of fact, Chinese people en masse do NOT want freedom of vote, expression and religion. For one reason or another, as a matter of fact for the HUGE majority these are non-existing problems, since most believe that "religion is superstition", they have actually no opinion and as a matter of fact really have nothing to say...So all the above are redundant then right?
The expectations of the West that Chinese actually want freedom do not correspond to the overall situation.The majority of Chinese have no idea what "freedom" of this or that is, and they really don't care.I don't know if this is a successful result of the evil genius Party plan and policies, or it is the "natural" state of events. I see and understand that very well.
But still it is terribly disappointing to see what most of the young Chinese are today. Is this China's future? Materialist, empty, utilitarian, apathetic, mediocre...and/or nationalistic.When I see those pictures from 1989 I'm thinking, is it possible that this is the same country?!

WEAR WHITE

For commemorating this 20th anniversary some have come up with the idea to wear white that day.I think it is a very smart idea.
I find it hard to believe that someone can get arrested for simply wearing white, right?!
Maybe wearing black clothes might also do. Both are concidered colours of mourning.

20 years ago the Berlin Wall fell and this fact changed the world. It is time that the Great Wall of China also falls sometime soon.

China needs to change. For it's own sake.

https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_kJKuy54em1rlkozS7OI4nOURsWhqVwZL0z8JI9C6FlDCU_HbhJp37JzcCgusFgFtz_Nc1l21vsH1f0wIoshpI6wMo2KhWrRxDZboU1CK-d81Fl73Fz2JBwDqttEE0Jd5QXLqRzT7Rlw/s800/capt_photo_1241753377246-1-0.jpg


Tiananmen dissident calls for 'white China' day (AFP)


BEIJING (AFP) – Wang Dan, a key figure in the 1989 pro-democracy protests in
China, said Thursday he hoped the nation would be "covered in white" to mark the
anniversary of the bloody Tiananmen crackdown."We are promoting a campaign
called 'White Clothes Day,'" Wang, who was jailed for years in China before
being exiled, told AFP from Taiwan, where he was staying temporarily to continue
his fight for democracy."That means we appeal to Chinese people to wear white
clothes (the colour of mourning in China) on June 4 to remember June 4, and we
hope that on that day, we can witness a China covered in white," he
explained.Studying at Peking University in 1989, Wang was first on a list of 21
most wanted students in China after the army cracked down on the Tiananmen
demonstrations, killing hundreds, and possibly thousands.After being arrested,
Wang was sentenced to four years in prison in 1991 and freed in 1993. He was
re-arrested in 1995 after continuing to campaign for human rights and democracy
and sentenced the following year to a further 11 years in jail.

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Western media have published some interesting articles recently days before the anniversary.I find those comparing the generation of young people 20 years ago and those of today the most interesting, here are some articles, that if you have time you may read:

Apathy of China's Young GenerationTiananmen anniversary unimportant to China's youth
(LA Times)
http://www.latimes.com/news/nationworld/world/la-fg-china-youth22-2009may22,0,1381,full.story
Tiananmen protests hold little interest for China's youth (Reuters)http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20090528/wl_nm/us_china_tiananmen_youth_2
China faces dark memory of Tiananmen (AFP)
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20090531/ts_afp/chinapoliticsrightstiananmen_20090531052350Activist groups have called on citizens simply to wear white -- the traditional colour of mourning -- to honour those killed in the mayhem that erupted when tanks and troops rolled in to crush the protests.
Web-savvy & cynical: China's youth since Tiananmen (AP)
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090530/ap_on_re_as/china_born_on_the_fourth




DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER
DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER
DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER
DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER
DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER


("1989" George Orwell )

Tuesday, 26 May 2009

finally handed-in my thesis today

It HAS been a while since my last post.
I didn't even read the news with my morning cup of coffee the past few days (apparently meanwhile North Korea did a nuke test of which of course I was oblivious. Hm, to think of it, is it so important for our existence to have this kind of information really?!)
And of course I didn't have any time to post here.
The last few days were physically and mentally busy and exhausting.
In just a few days I had to write my thesis. In fact it only took the time since Thursday until today 7 o'clock in the morning to finish it.
In fact I have worked on this topic for the last 3-4 years and I have collected so much material that I still haven't even managed to mention or use some of it. However writing all than on paper under emotional pressure is NOT easy.
It was an intense and wearisome experience.
Here I wish to thank my Chinese friends and classmates who helped me those few days with the overwhelming task. I wish to thank my dear (pregnant) friend H. R.F. for her help and for staying in front of the computer for hours for two days in a row. I also want to thank Z.F. for checking and being responsible for the Traditional Chinese Character script. ( I decided that since my thesis is using so much of Classical Chinese texts, it must be printed in the form that is as close to the original as possible).
Lastly said, but mostly indebted I am to L.X. for his forbearance and untiring help those few days. Without his help and support this thesis would not have been ready today.
I am indebted to all three of you. MARGA, thank you!
After sleeping for 2 hours last night and after not having key elements even ready a couple of hours before deadline, with the help of my friends I somehow managed to get it done in time.
I haven't even read the thing (or seeing it in a finished for printing form)before I printed it out. Reading it now, I find that there are quite a few places that I could have easily seen and changed if only I had time to at least read it once.
Oh, well.
Frankly speaking judging from the whole attitude of my advisor and the teachers who are going to read the paper it is very HARD to feel motivation for doing something very good. It will not be appreciated.
My defense is this coming Sunday.
For my own sake I'll try this days to at least correct the mistakes I already noticed...